CHAPTER 4- ADMIRATION

The two of them waited outside the building of the Jin's. She isn't sure if it's the right thing to do since she know how Emperor Yang hated the unwanted public attention. Her nerves are full with overwhelming fright that she is having a feeling of agitation expressed in continual motion. With her working experience under the name of the Jin's, she is quite tolerant herself despite the severe and unremitting in making demands of her employer. However, she called herself lucky to be one of the few applicants who passed the interview regardless of her social heritage. That's why, she cannot just give up with her position. A lot of people who wished to have what she have and she will keep holding it in until the day the company no longer needed her.

Recalling the past, the first time she personally meet Emperor Yang were he was one of the panels. She became motivated of succeeding the employment. No matter what position they will assign to her, she will accept it wholeheartedly as long as she could get a glimpse of her favorite idol.

The woman laugh slim thinking of how stupid her reasons is. Just because she is eager to meet her idol in person that she is willing sacrifices herself to serve the company. Yet again, she never feel rued about it.

Hearing the sudden the laugh of the woman beside him, the man spoke in curiosity, "what's the matter, Ms. A? are you alright?" the man narrowed his brows seeing the woman laugh by herself "Are you tired? Do you want to take a rest for a bit? I'll call you back when emperor Yang arrives" His gentle yet soothing voice can make one self be at ease. While his face is such a pleasing to the eyes.

Waving her hand, Ms. A corresponded "I'm fine. I'm fine. No worries Christ"

"are you sure? You can take a break you know. You've been put up lately because of the news. I even hardly see you rest. And besides, the driver just message me that they will be a bit late because of the heavy traffic" he's shyly persona making Ms. A felt relieve.

"Ah, I'm okay. It's just that I recall something funny. Can't help but laughing from it"

Christ stare at Ms. A for an indefinitely short time before he mumble himself "funny.. huh" A smile form in his lips along with his blushing cheeks. " what could it be? Mind sharing it with me?" Christ innocently tilted his head.

Ms. A turn her head to Christ's view. A minimal gasp escape from her mouth. The sight of this young man is undeniably attractive even with a glasses hanging between his eyes.

From the outsider's view, relationship between them is way too good. Though, their actual occupation is different from each other as Ms A's the company's HR while Christ is the department head of the marketing department. They have different task each day but they sync in unison when it comes to Emperor Yang's matters.

Christ has a long time affection towards Ms. A but due to the policy of the company he cannot gathered courage to confess. Admiring her from a distant is enough for him. Seeing her everyday, talking to her if possible or even a simple morning greetings are sufficient enough for him. He doesn't wish to have an awkward atmosphere between them. A transparent wall that will separate them for a long time. If confessing turn out to be the reason of moving apart, then he'd rather keep it for himself.

Ms. A closed her eyes as she bow down her head- feeling the sway of the breeze brushing off her cheeks placating a calm and easy vibe and her hand brush aside the falling hair into her ear. "well, it's just I was a fool back then. I keep on thinking to why did I choose to apply here in spite of how much I idolize Emperor Yang. They say I won't reach anything because I was born a commoner. Applying in this company only have a slim chance of success for a humble background like me. But look at me now, I am stressing myself out with this and that. It's tiring by the way...…" she pause for a minute before rising up her head as well as opening back her eyes at the same time "but I'm happy..." Her lips parted as a curve smile ignited in between "because you're here"

Somewhere deep inside her heart, she can't deny the fact the she grow found of him for some reason. She doesn't know why but there's a gut feeling that this is not simple mist of admiration but something else. Something that even she herself is most afraid of. A particular feeling in which a human being is most vulnerable.

A particular amount of time passes still Ms. A didn't hear any respond from Christ. She thought that Christ might fell awkward upon hearing what she just said. As so, she took a peek from the man and was utterly stuck of what she saw. Christ was having a epistaxis.

Startled, Ms. A was poured out with an overwhelming fear "ah!? Chr…ist… Christ.. A…Are y. you okay? Do you want me t.to send you to the infirmary?"

Clueless of what she was talking about, Christ simply answered "huh?"

Pointing her finger in, Ms. A was quivering "you…. your nose... it's bleeding"

Christ slowly touch his nose. He somewhat feel wet over his finger tips that he instantly looked over it. Seeing a bright red pigment, Christ immediately cover up his nose using his palms. Flustered from the sudden embarrassment, Christ couldn't help but cursing himself 'embarrassing… so embarrassing… Shameless…. I'm so shameful… How could I do that. And in front of her at that. For goodness' sake , why? What should I do? What will she think? What will happened from now on. Will she avoid me? This is so awkward. No.no. I can't let that happened. But what about my impression? Noooooo. It's over. IT'S ALL OVER'

Christ wanted to cry out loud. His mind was engrossed of the possibility of being treated with disdain as his hard earning good impression over a year of preparation was ruined with a simple epistaxis. No medicine can cure his dying image. He wanted to be swallowed down by the ground. He's heart was too broken at the time. Several scenarios had been played in his thoughts. One, is when Ms. A no longer talk to him because of this incident. Two, is when he no longer have the spirit of braveness that enables him to face the pain without showing his fear. Third, the bond between them will severely affected causing him to lose hope of fixing it again. Forth, is when Ms. A will cut ties with him and will forget about the things they shared and even his name. There are still multiple of pretext that Christ are unable to imagine.

Likewise, Christ is scared. Christ is a coward. Christ is an idiot.

Ms. A notice the pale complexion of Christ, thus, she tap his shoulder lightly that makes Christ brought back to reality.

"Christ. Should I accompany you to visit the hospital? You…. look… terrible" Her anxious eyes showed the uneasiness and trouble expression. Though, the matter Emperor Yang is important still the health of his comrade is crucial than any means. If she have to face the penalty, then she will bare in mind to accept it without complain. After all, Emperor Yang won't accept any less reason what's more with just helping out a coworker.

"Ms. A… I… I….." before Christ could blurted out his phrase, his visual senses are already depleting. Everything happened so quickly that he no longer could process the event. At the same time, as he rises his hand to reach out for something; before it could even took place, his sight soon turn into all black. Christ past out under the embrace of his beloved.