Filthy thoughts in the end of the day

" Oh my god !!!!

Nooooooo !

Cole !

Oh my god, Cole ! "

This is all my fault.

All my fault !

If had listened to Cole about moving in with them, this would never have happened !

He already got a knife cut and now he got the bullet which was aimed at me !

Lauren got injured, few of Derek's men got KILLED and that too because of me !

What have I done !

I won't be able to forgive myself ever for this !

" Cole, Cole !

Open your eyes.

Look at me, Cole.

Please, talk to me.

Cole !

Why did you do that ?

You don't deserve this for me; BECAUSE OF ME ! Please Cole, open your eyes and talk to me.

Derek !

Call the bloody ambulance.

Oh God, Cole !!!!!!! "

I screamed my lungs out and I don't know what happened but I fainted.

When I opened my eyes, I was in the hospital and Derek and Jules were sitting beside me.

" Oh honey, you are finally awake !

I was so scared.

How you feeling ? "

Jules said relief in his voice.

" You really scared us, love !

Are you alright ?

You need some water or juice or anything ? "

Derek asked concerned.

" I am alright, where is Cole ?

How is he ?

I need to see him.

Oh god, he was bleeding bad and even got shot !

He shouldn't have done that.

I don't deserve to be treated like this.

That bullet was supposed to hit me but he took it on himself !

I need to meet him Derek !

Please... "

I said impatiently and eager to see him being fine.

I got up on the bed, but the sudden action got me head rush.

I held my head and lied on the bed.

Jules took my hand in his and started caressing it and Derek caressed my head.

" You can't meet him now, love.

Because he..."

Derek said sadly.

He was going to say something else but my eagerness got best of me and I didn't let him finish.

" What ?

Why ?

Is he...

Oh my god ?

Is he alright ?

Please tell me he is fine and alive !

Please Derek don't taste my patience, tell me... "

I screamed impatiently.

" Relax, love.

He is alive !

Nothing happened to him.

He isn't a weak guy !

He have handled much more worse than this situations and showed god of death the middle finger.

Don't worry. "

Derek said trying to make me relax.

" But you said that... "

I said with a bit of relief.

" You can't meet him NOW !

Because he is in the OT.

No one except for the medical staff is allowed to enter the OT.

That's why I said, you can't meet him now.

He'll be alright.

You don't have to blame yourself for happened. "

Derek said squeezing my hand warmly.

" Why shouldn't I blame myself ?

This all happened because of me !

I should have listened to him; to all of you guys.

He was right, my place is way too far from your reach.

The backup took too long to reach and that's why you guys faced that.

Those mother fucking bastards would have got killed earlier and they wouldn't have been able to hurt anyone there ! "

I said fuming at myself.

" Ooooh, Badass ! "

Derek said sounding impressed with the choice of my words and intensity of emotions.

" Language, honey !

Shut up Derek she is..."

Jules said being mom !

" Please, Jules !

This isn't the time to improve my language.

Derek, you said I can't meet him but can I see him from outside of the OT ? "

I asked hopefully.

" I don't think so, love !

When they'll shift him, I'll ask Dominic to help us a bit.

But, till then...

Sorry. "

Derek said twitching his eyebrows.

" Ok.

Oh god, how can I forget about HIM !

How is Lauren ?

He was hurt too !

Where is he ?

Can I at least meet HIM ?

Please ? "

I asked him.

" Oh yes, love.

Ofcourse you can !

He isn't hurt that much.

He is fine.

The drama queen is busy gathering the free staff and tell them how he saved your life ! "

Derek said rolling his eyes.

" I need to see him, Derek !

Take me to him. "

" You don't need to bother, honey.

We can call him here.

He is perfectly alright.

He can come by himself. "

Jules said trying to make me stop.

" No.

He was hurt.

Nothing happened to me when, it should have been me to get hurt and all the pain ! "

I said almost crying.

" Shut up !

Don't say such things and insult Cole's deed !

He almost sacrificed his life to save you and you are... "

Derek said almost yelling at me.

" But he had to go through this because of ME, no one can deny that !

And you guys tried to convince me to do what he said, but I didn't listened to you guys either.

It all happened because of me !

Me and only me is to be blamed for the loss.

Your men died because of my stubbornness, Lauren is hurt because of me, Cole is having a surgery and getting out the bullet stuck in his body, which was aimed at me !

And what happened to me ?

Nothing at all !

I am troubling you guys way too much !

I am so sorry.

Your life have became hell since the day I entered your lives ! "

I started crying while saying.

" I am gonna slap you now, if you uttered any single shit out of your mouth ! "

Derek yelled at me.

" Language Derek ! "

Jules said softly.

" Oh shut up, Jules ! "

Derek yelling at him.

" And you, do you think you saying sorry is gonna make us feel better ?

It's gonna make us feel better that, you are sorry for the trouble happened ? "

Derek said turning towards me crossing his arms.

" But what you don't know is, this is KILLING us ! Listening your bullshit make us wanna kill ourselves.

We did this all because we thought you've became our family !

We thought you think of us as your friends, that's why we did everything for you.

Whatever we did, we did because we love you and can't see you in any trouble and pain...

And you are saying that you made our lives HELL ?

We didn't do anything because we wanted anything from you, love !

We did because we WANTED to.

And you are insulting our intensions and deeds ? This is so not done ! "

Derek said scolding me.

" Derek... "

Jules tried to interrupting.

" No, Jules !

You know I never get mad at her.

But her words hurted me !

I can't listen to any of her bullshit anymore.

If you think you are a burnden to us and trouble maker for us, you are free to leave and I won't stop you !

But remember one thing, you won't find happiness after hurting me and leaving me like that ! "

Derek said turning his back on me.

" Derek !

What are you saying ?

Don't be rude to her.

She is already so hurt, don't hurt her more ! "

Jules said to Derek.

" Am I hurting her ?

And what about she hurting me ?

Didn't you felt a slap on your face with her words ? "

Derek said fuming to Jules.

" Yes, I did !

But... "

Jules said softly.

" No but's !

She don't have any right to say such nonsense shit ! "

Derek turning towards him and yelled.

" I am sorry, Derek.

I didn't meant to... "

I said trying to explain myself.

" What ? "

Derek yelled in disbelief.

" Let me speak... "

I tried to reason with him.

" What do you wanna speak ?

Same bullshit again ? "

Derek said raising his eyebrows.

" At least listen to wha... "

I tried to speak.

" I don't want to ! "

Derek said crossing his arms and turning his back at me again.

I grabbed his hand and pulled him for a tight hug. He tried to escape out of it, but I held him tight. He slowly wrapped his arms around me and hugged me back.

" Please forgive me, Derek !

I didn't meant to hurt your feelings.

I was so mad with myself that, everything happened because of me and that's why...

I am really very sorry.

Trust me, I didn't wanted to hurt your feelings, neither of any one of yours !

Please, forgive me ?

Isn't it enough that, Mr. Cold is already mad at me that, YOU too wanna join his club ?

Please don't be mad at me, please ? "

I said pleading him.

He patted my head and pressed me against him and kissed my head.

" Don't even dare to say such rubbish ever again, ok ? "

Derek said sighing.

" I promise.

Please, forgive me ? "

I said softly.

" I can't stay mad at you love, and you know that ! I forgive you.

Just don't say any of those heart breaking words ever.

You have made our lives heaven, love.

You made us completely different humans.

The good ones !

It's us, who aren't able to help you.

It should be us apologising you and not you ! "

Derek said caressing my back.

" Ok.

Enough hard feelings now.

Let's go to Lauren.

I need to see him. "

I said letting him go.

I've never seen Derek getting mad at me !

But today ?

He got very mad.

I guess, I've hurt his feelings too much.

But, I didn't intended it !

I didn't wanted him to get hurt.

When I released him from my embrace, Jules wasn't happy to see me hugging Derek !

He was looking pissed as well as jealous.

What ?

Why would he...

Oh...

Is that because we've...

Slept together ?

Oh fuck !

If that's the reason, I am gonna get in a very big trouble !

I can't afford anyone of the guys getting jealous of eachothers; because I don't have feelings for any ONE of them; I have the same feelings for EVERYONE of them !

Let's keep this topic for some other time, I need to see Lauren now.

We went to see Lauren.

He was laying on bed with his eyes closed.

I went close to him and placed my hand on his forehead and he opened his eyes and looked at me.

I couldn't control myself and I hugged him.

He pulled me closer to him and it made me almost lay in his bed beside him.

I too wanted to wrap my arms tighty around him.

He too was injured because of me !

I felt very bad for him.

But I stopped my tears from falling from my eyes, because Derek would again get mad at me !

When he let me go, now Derek had joined Jules's team in looking pissed and jealous, oh god !

Derek not you too, please !

" How are you, Lauren ?

I was so scared.

You aren't too hurt, are you ? "

I asked concerned.

" I am alright, baby.

Safe and alive infront of you ! "

Lauren said smiling.

" I am so relieved to see you safe.

Thank god you are not too hurt.

You have got hurt the second time because of me !

I am sorry.

How you feeling now ? "

I asked.

" Good.

It is hurting, but it's berable !

Dominic said it would heal soon and won't take too long.

It just kissed my arm and went, didn't got into my body.

He said if it had got inside, they'd had to replace my bone with a metal road.

And it too was risky because, it wouldn't be a sure operation !

But it just kissed and went away.

So, I am safe.

And don't say that happened because of you, baby.

You have nothing to do with it ! "

Lauren said kissing my forehead.

" Oh god !

I am so sorry, Lauren.

I didn't wanted... "

I tried to apologize.

" Enough, love !

You don't have to repeat yourself ! "

Derek said softly.

" Yeah.

I am sorry.

I am very glad that, you are out of danger.

I am so worried about Cole, Lauren ! "

I expressed my worry.

" He is too strong, love.

You don't need to worry about him.

He'll be alright, trust me. "

Lauren said smiling.

" But he is hurt very bad.

He got a very deep cut in his arm and still he shot them dead.

Not only that, he took the bullet which could have killed me then and there... "

I said horrified at the thought and feeling guilty for Cole.

Lauren squeezed me in his arms.

" Shhhhh.

Don't say such horrible things, love !

I can't listen to them.

I would have killed myself if, something had happened to you !

Cole knew, he could save you and himself !

And trust me even if, he knew he could only save you and not himself; he still would have went for that !

And if, there was anyone of us at his place, he would have done the same.

He'll be alright love, don't worry.

Nothing would happen to him. "

Lauren said caressing me and trying to calm me down.

" Yes but, I've seen his cut !

It was too deep.

And the bullet too got shot in the same arm, what if the bullet have got his some important muscle or something ?

What if he can't...

All this because of me...

Oh god, why I didn't... "

I said panicked.

" Hey, hey.

Shhhhh.

Calm down, sweetheart !

Nothing will happen to him.

And why are you blaming yourself uselessly ?

I told you, you've got nothing to do with what happened ! "

Lauren said caressing my back softly.

" I am trying to tell her the same thing, but she isn't ready to listen to me !

She is blaming herself for what happened.

Shall I tell him, what did you said ? "

Derek said threatening me.

" No, don't ! "

I said.

I didn't wanted Lauren to know what have I said and give him too a chance to scold me !

" Hey !

What are you hiding from me ?

Tell me ! "

Lauren asked.

" No, Derek.

Please ! "

I pleaded him.

" You don't want to tell me ?

You can tell them and not ME ?

This is your friendship ?

You don't trust me ?

What have I done that... "

Lauren said trying to emotionally blackmail me.

" Oh, shut up drama queen ! "

I said softly punching his chest.

" On one condition, tell me what did you said ? Derek ? "

Lauren asked again.

" She said, she have made our lives hell !

She is the trouble maker in our lives.

We were happy before she came in our lives and now, it has become hell because of her ! "

Derek told him looking at me.

" What ?

Are you out of your mind ?

Why would say that ?

Do you have any idea what our lives were before you came ?

Then how could you say that it has became hell ? Silly girl ! "

Lauren said softly.

" That's it ?

Just, silly girl ?

And nothing else ? "

Derek said surprised.

" I know you must have scolded her, I don't want to do it again !

She is recovering from the shock of the first shootout of her life happened infront of her eyes !

She needs to rest.

Why did you brought her here ?

I didn't know she was awake.

If had known, I would have come to meet her.

I didn't wanted to disturb her and you guys were there for her ! "

Lauren said caressing my head.

" We told her that, we can call you there.

But she said, you are injured and she isn't.

So she is the one, who should come and meet you ! "

Jules told him.

" Oh love, you are so sweet !

Baby, this isn't any injury.

We are used to such small scratches, but what YOU witnessed was something horrible.

You aren't used to face them ! "

Lauren said kissing my forehead.

" If I am not mistaken, you are a LAWYER right ? "

I said confused at his statement.

" Ha ha ha.

Yes love, you are absolutely right.

I am a lawyer but, Cole got special permission for me to get the training.

And in that training, I've faced many shoot outs. And not only that, but I have been a part of few real shoot out other than the drill ones.

So, I am used to that.

Cole didn't asked me to cover him just because I was present there at the moment !

He knew, I have experience in such situations. "

Lauren said caressing my head lovingly.

" Oh, is that so ?

Jules, when will I be able to meet Cole ?

My heart won't beat normally, unless I see him with my own eyes out of danger ! "

I said running my hand over Lauren's chest without even realising lost in my thoughts.

" Soon honey. "

Jules said coldly staring at my hand on his chest.

I took my hand off his chest.

I got off the bed and sat beside lost in Cole's thought.

Jules came to me and took me in his embrace,

I surely needed that.

His embrace is so soothing and calming, It always makes me forget about all my worries.

I hugged him tightly and opened my eyes to pissed and jealous Lauren !

Ugh...

Not again !

I am out of here !

" Um, Jules ?

Can you get me some cold coffee, with... "

I said.

" Chocolate sauce ! "

Derek finished my line.

" Oh, you remembered ! "

I said smiling bright.

" Ofcourse, I remember.

I can't forget what you like, love ! "

Derek said smirking.

Uh-oh, danger alert, danger alert !

Need to change the topic !

" Yes, with chocolate sauce !

Can you make it quick, please ?

I need something to take my mind off Cole's thought now, or I am gonna imagine him in every worst condition possible ! "

I said not looking at anyone of them.

" Yes ofcourse, honey.

Wait for me.

Anything else ? "

Jules asked.

" No, cold coffee would be enough. "

I said.

He went and Derek was about to approach me.

I can't let him be close to me infront of Lauren.

I never thought, being close to one of them infront of everyone else was gonna be this difficult for me !

" Lauren, don't act like Hercules !

You need rest to recover quick.

The frequency of attacks have increased now, I need to be ready.

Don't forget, you have to teach me the remaining lessons of self defence !

For that, I need you healthy and strong as we were.

So, take rest now.

And I too need to stay away from you, for now.

I can't see you hurt like this, because...

Um...

For me, recover as soon as possible !

I'll take your leave now.

And as long as you are here, I'll cook for you and get it here for you."

I said.

" No need of doing that ! "

Derek almost yelled at me.

" Excuse me ? "

I flinched at his tone.

" Um...

What I mean is, we haven't caught Michael yet.

He can attack again if, he saw you daily coming here.

Because it's obvious, he would have known by now that, you are alive and someone must have got injured.

So, you wandering out here so carelessly, isn't safe for you.

And the ones who are alright and safe are,

A Doctor, who is best in treating the injured ones.

A judge, who has the best judgement and last but not the least,

A best Detective of his department, whose speciality is to collect proofs which no one can get !

Though, he has a commando training, but he can't protect 3 of you and himself all alone !

And moreover if, Cole came to know about this, he'd be very pissed at you.

And I think, it is more than enough amount of pissing someone off who is already pissed; and especially when that someone is COLE !

My duty was to warn you, in the end it's your call ! You are 19, I can't stop you legally from doing anything at all but suicide !

Think about it.

He'll recover soon and gonna come back to our place; then you can FEED him if you want to !

But... "

He was telling me the danger I'd face if, I did what I said.

That was completely true; but his emotions were more of jealousy than concern at that moment !

And the way he said, I can FEED him if, I want to... God what's gonna happen form now on ?

I am going to live with all of them under the same roof at the same time from now on !

" He is right, as usual Ash.

You don't need to come here daily.

I'll be home soon and so will Cole !

You really mustn't come visit us here.

Dominic can tell you about us at home.

Don't worry love, we'll be fine soon.

And you've got Derek and his men, Jules and Dominic to protect you at home.

Here we've got no one we can trust !

So, do as he says.

And yes, Cole would be very very mad at you if, he comes to know that !

He'd say, you don't care about our LIVES and don't respect our EFFORTS we do to save your life without worrying or thinking about OURS !

You know, he doesn't thinks about anyone's emotions behind the deed, just says what he feels and mostly it HURTS !

So, don't worry about us.

And even if, Dominic gave me discharge, I'll come back home with Cole !

I'll stay here for his security.

As Dominic said, you are good to go home as soon as you open your eyes.

I think you should go home now and take rest.

And don't worry, our home is fully secured with theft break-in and everything so, you are more than safe there !

And we'll come back to you soon, love ! "

Lauren promised.

" Ok.

I see both of your point and that's right !

I won't come visit you guys.

But I'll send the food with Dominic or anyone among them when, they'll come to visit you. "

I said to Lauren.

And why would I FEED him, Derek ? "

I said turning to him.

" And why WON'T you ? "

Lauren said offended.

" And why WOULD she ? "

Derek said getting jealous.

" I've got my right arm injured and I eat with the same hand. "

Lauren said justifying his words.

" You haven't hurt you elbow joint that you can't take your hand to your mouth !

It's just the upper arm and that too the bullet just kissed didn't got in your body ! "

Derek said crossing his arms.

Oh god, are they gonna fight now ?

" Yes, but Dominic asked me not to lift anything heavy with my hand. "

Lauren said raising his eyebrows.

" I guess you aren't gonna eat iron bars, now are you ? "

Derek said.

" Um...

Ok...

You got me there !

Take her home, bud.

See you soon.

And I'll miss you. "

Lauren said smiling at me.

" Yup, I am gonna miss you too, ba...

Um...

Bro.

Come home soon, you know I can't live with only them at home ! "

Derek said to him.

" Yes, don't worry, I'll !

Um...

Ash, can I ask you for something ? "

Lauren said.

" Sure, anything. "

I said.

" Can you please give me a tight warm hug ?

I was so scared to see you faint there infront of my eyes !

I thought, the bullet got you too...

I was...

Um...

I... "

Lauren struggled with his words.

I went to him and hugged him tightly.

I too was so scared to see him hurt.

I forgot about where I was, who was there in the room with us and it came to me naturally and I kissed his forehead and temple.

I pulled him closer and he pressed his face against my chest and grasped me even tighter.

" Oh, love.

I was so scared

I thought I lost you !

The moment I saw you fall on the ground, my brain stopped working completely.

I didn't saw a single drop of blood over your body, but still I thought the bullet got you !

And I won't lie, but my heart literally stopped beating for a moment.

And when I saw you breathing, then I got my mind back and saw Cole infront of you with the bullet mark and more blood.

And my heart sunk again !

I love all of you guys, you are more than a family for me and seeing anyone among you hurt, kills me !

I am so glad you are safe, darling !

I don't know what would have I done if, I had lost you.

I don't even wanna think about it.

Even the thought of loosing you raised goosebumps on my body. "

Lauren said shivering.

And yes, he was right !

I could see his goosebumps.

His words made me press him even more tightly to me.

I was so overwhelmed at the moment, I almost forgot about his injured arm.

He hugged me so tight that, his wound started bleeding !

" Lauren, your wound is bleeding, dude !

Let me call a nurse. "

Derek said and ran out of the room.

I tried to get out of his embrace to see his wound, but he didn't let me go and made his embrace more tight around me.

" Baby, please let me go.

Your wound is bleeding.

It must be aching !

I don't want you to bear more pain because of me again.

It'll kill me to see you in pain, baby.

I am here.

I am not going anywhere.

When you are there with me, nothing can happen to me.

Please loose your embrace, baby.

I too don't want to get out of your arms, but it's hurting you and seeing you in pain, is hurting me too ! "

I wispered softly to him.

He loosened his grasp around me, but didn't let me go.

And when I took his arms off me, I saw tears in his eyes !

Oh god, why is he crying ?

Is it hurting him that much ?

" Hey !

What's wrong ?

Is it hurting that much ?

Derek went to call a nurse, she'll dress your wound and it'll be ok.

Does it really hurts that bad ? "

I asked concerned.

He looked into my eyes.

He couldn't talk properly as he was crying.

Still he wispered to me,

" Yes !

Yes it hurts to... think about loosing you !

Seeing you... getting hurt.

It hurts so much, love...

It hurts bad..."

I lost my mind at his words.

I really didn't thought about what was I doing.

I cupped his face and pressed my lips to his.

And he kissed me back.

He grabbed my head and waist and pulled me closer to him.

It was very uncomfortable for me to stand like that, so I moved and bumped onto the medicine table besides me.

It craked a bit loud and I stopped kissing him !

He was pulling me in for another kiss, but my mind got cleared with the table sound.

Jules can come back any moment with my coffee and Derek too can come now with the nurse he went for !

I pulled away from him and kept my hand around his shoulder and stood beside him.

Thank god we stopped.

As expected Jules came back with my coffee !

" Hey !

Someone's crying.

That's surprising !

I've never seen him cry before.

Are you alright, Lauren ? "

Jules asked concerned.

" Yes, he is.

He just got emotional a bit.

You know his dramas !

I am safe, Lauren.

Don't worry.

No one can hurt me as long as I have you guys watching my back ! "

I said squeezing his shoulder a bit.

" What ?

What happened ? "

Jules asked confused.

" Nothing, he got emotional at the thought of loosing me ! "

I said casually.

" Oh dear !

By the way, he's not the only one who got emotional at the thought of loosing you, darling. "

Jules said with longing in his eyes for me.

" What do you mean ? "

I asked.

" We all had our eyes wet when, we saw you unconscious laying there for almost 8 hrs !

We too got very nervous till you opened your eyes ! "

Jules said.

" Oh guys, you are so adorable !

I really don't know what have I done to deserve all of you guys by my side and your love and protection !

You guys have done so much for me and I haven't done anything at all.

You guys treated my wounds, gave me support, protected me without caring about your lives.

Gave me a family I lost; much better than the previous one.

Loved me unconditionally, spoiled me, pampered me and... "

I couldn't say anything anymore.

I had decided not to cry or shade a single drop infront of my lovers !

I know it'll break their heart to see me crying.

Lauren grabbed my hand in his.

" Hey, don't say you haven't done anything for us. You have changed our lives in a very good way, you just don't know about it !

And what we've done for you is nothing infront of what you did for us ! "

Lauren said squeezing my hand warmly.

Jules approached me and patted my head.

" Now that you said that, we have became your family, then we don't do favours for family, right ? And we don't count what our family have done for us.

We just love our family unconditionally and the most in the world, don't we ? "

Jules said.

I nodded.

Jules tucked my escaped curls behind my ear and cupped my face.

He looked into my eyes and pressed his lips to my forehead and rubbed his thumb over my cheeks affectionately.

It felt very comforting and reassuring to me that no matter what happens, I have them to myself !

And then, Derek came with the nurse.

She saw his bandaid soaked with his blood and was so surprised to see that.

" Mr. Baker, what happened ?

How is your wound bleeding this much ? "

Nurse almost screamed in shock.

" Um...

Why are you so surprised to see it ? "

Lauren asked confused at her reaction.

" Well, what kind of question is this ?

Mr. Allen have stitched your wound like an hour ago and you got it bleeding it this bad and asking me, why am I so surprised ?

Your bandaid is soaked with your blood completely ! "

Nurse said making him notice it.

" An HOUR ago ?

Derek, haven't you gotten him admitted here last night ?

Then how come, he got stitches and hour ago ? What happened ? "

I asked him confused.

" Yes love, we did got him here last night !

But his wound wasn't that bad last night so, Dominic just cleaned his wound and gave him some medicine.

But in the morning, his wound was looking deep and it was bleeding so, Dominic stitched his wound an hour ago... "

Derek tried to explain me the situation and I got panicked and wasn't in the state to listen to Derek patiently.

" What ?

Are you stupid, Lauren ?

How could you do that ?

It would have been aching bad and yet you... "

I shrieked in panic.

" Relax, love.

I am alright.

It wasn't that bad, trust me. "

Lauren said casually.

" Well, can I ask what just happened here ?

Why is it like this ? "

She said and slided towards Derek too close; more than she should have !

" Let it go, miss !

That was an overwhelming moment.

Just dress his wound and check for broken stitches so that, we can get the doctor as soon as possible. "

Derek said looking at Lauren.

" Miss ?

Why did you call me that, handsome ?

You know my name and you always call me by my name.

Then what happened now ? "

Nurse said trying to catch his eye.

What ?

Handsome ?

Never called her miss ?

I glared at Derek after getting pissed at him.

He moved away from her and he looked at me scared and he stumbled upon his words.

" Um...

Nothing's like that...

I... Um...

I just knew your name and...

But from now on...

I am not gonna call you by your name.

And what is handsome ?

Call me Mr. Cooper I am not your childhood friend or something like that...

So you shouldn't...

Um... "

Derek said few things.

He came closer to me but I was mad at him and I moved closer to Jules and made him stay between me and Derek.

The nurse looked pissed at his words.

She banged the bottle of sanitizer on the medicine table more forcefully than she should have, catching all of our attention !

She looked at Lauren and he looked so tensed and moved his eyes between me and her !

What's going on ?

What happened ?

Is he scared of the pain ?

But he...

Before she could say anything to him he said to her.

" Sister, please be gentle. "

She got so pissed, she didn't said anything but she pressed her fingers over his soaked bandaid.

" Oh god, what the fuck ! "

Lauren screamed in pain.

Derek and Jules chuckled beside me.

What ?

He is in pain and instead of scolding her for doing that to him, they are laughing ?

How insensitive !

" Hey !

Why did you do that ?

He is already in pain and you ?

Your job is to dress his aching wound and give him painkillers and you are increasing his pain !

What kind of nurse are you ? "

I yelled at her in anger.

She looked at me with so much rage in her eyes and somehow it was looking like, it was for me ! What ?

Why ?

What did I do to her ?

" Oh, so YOU are the reason the responses changed today !

You can't talk to me that way !

And for guys like THEM ?

I'll give you an advice, don't let them waste your time and break your heart when, they get a new toy... "

Nurse uttered some nonsense.

I got so mad at her.

Firstly she treats her patient inhumanly, then raises her voice at me and insult my guys; infront of me !

How dare she ?

" Keep your mouth shut and do what you are paid for !

Don't try to become free advisor.

I'll see what I need to do.

But for now, you need to do your job ! "

I yelled at her.

" Hey, hey hey !

Watch your tone and words, you don't know whom you are taking to !

I am gonna complaint against you to our senior here ! "

Nurse said raising her voice at me.

" Fuck you !

Call whoever you want to.

What you did was wrong and no one can give decision against me, because I am on the right side !

Go and call whoever you want to; no, first dress up his wound and then do whatever you please ! "

I raised my voice at her.

She pissed me off by insulting me and threatening me !

" Hey, you don't have any right to talk to me that way ! "

Nurse said pointing a finger at me !

" Ashl... "

Derek tried to interrupt us.

" Keep your mouth shut ! "

I scolded him and then turned to her,

" And you miss, you are getting paid for serving us and you aren't doing your job so, YOU don't have any right to talk to me that way !

I'll sue you for this nonsense and insensitive behaviour towards the patient in pain ! "

I said raising my voice even more.

" You...

You...

You... "

Nurse was shaking in fury but couldn't gathere the right words.

" Me what ?

Say something !

And if you have finished with your words then, dress his wound and go call whoever you want to. I am standing right here and not going anywhere ! "

I said crossing my arms.

She didn't had anything to say anymore.

She gave me a ragefull look and dressed his wound.

Jules, Derek and Lauren were shocked and were looking at me like they've seen me for the first time !

I was very mad and shivering with anger.

How dare she hurt my already in pain Lauren like that ?

I won't take any nonsense against any of my guys !

What does she thinks of herself ?

I stood beside her so that, she couldn't hurt him again.

She dressed his wound and was about to leave...

" Call whoever if you want, but hurry up.

Mr. Allen have asked me to leave as soon as as I opened my eyes !

So, I need to leave. "

I said coldly to her.

" I am gonna complaint against you to Mr. Allen himself, understand ! "

Nurse said with a very high confidence that, she was gonna complaint to Mr. Allen himself.

As if he was gonna take any action against ME and that too for saving his FRIEND'S ass !

" What ?

Mr. Allen ?

Are you sure about it ? "

I said.

" Why ?

Now are you scared of him, huh ?

Good... "

Nurse said misunderstanding my words.

" Don't get too excited, girl !

Don't call him here... "

I was trying to tell her not to call him here for this minute thing.

But again she misunderstood me and didn't let me finish.

" See, finally scared of him ! "

Nurse said showing me attitude and proud of herself.

" Will you let me finish my sentence ?

I am saying, don't call him here, I am coming with you to him ! "

I said clenching my teeth at her stupid brain.

" No, you can't !

That's impossible.

This won't happen here. "

Nurse said telling me the rule !

" Nothing is impossible, love !

And I CAN come to him and meet him.

And this WILL happen here now ! "

I said raising my eyebrow.

I grabbed her hand and dragged her out of the room along with me.

And I heard the guys talking...

" Jules, wanna join ? "

Derek asked.

" Is that even a question ? "

Jules said scoffing.

" Hey, what about me ? "

Lauren said like a little child.

" You stay here bro, we can't miss the action about to happen for your sake !

I DO love you, but not this much to miss THIS action !

Let's go Jules. "

Derek said.

" I am coming too ! "

Lauren said.

I dragged her along with me to Dominic's cabin and luckily he was there and wasn't on his round.

He was shocked to see me grabbing her hand and Derek, Jules and LAUREN behind us !

He kept his file aside and looked at me.

He was about to say something but, I signed him to keep quiet and he did.

He looked at the nurse and she started fake crying.

And we all were surprised to see her crying and I couldn't stop myself from laughing out loud.

" Shhhh.

It's an hospital, keep your voice low !

What happened ?

Why are you crying, Miss. Alison ? "

Dominic shushed me and asked her softly.

" Mr. Allen, is THIS my reward of serving the patients so well and without caring about the time ? "

Miss. Alison said crying.

" Tell me what happened ?

Unless I know what happened, I can't say anything at all ! "

Dominic said calmly.

" Mr. Allen, this girl is accusing me for not treating Mr. Baker well ! "

Miss. Alison said wiping her dry cheek !

" What ?

What happened to Mr. Baker ?

Is he alright ? "

Dominic said panicked.

" Mr. Allen !

What am I telling you and what are you focusing at ?

This girl just accused me ! "

Miss. Alison said.

" Oh, I am sorry.

But as a doctor, I must pay attention to the patient first.

What happened ? "

Dominic said.

" Mr. Allen, I'll tell you what happened !

My friend Lauren got injured last night and so my friend Derek got him admitted here.

About an hour ago or so you stitched his wound and due to some overwhelming moments, the wound got some pressure and it started bleeding bad.

So, my friend Derek went to call her to dress his wound and make the blood stop.

So, what was her job there ? "

I asked him.

" To dress his wound immediately.

And change his bandaid ! "

Dominic said firmly.

" Right ?

But instead, she started uttering some bullshit like,

' Oh so you are the one because of who the responses changed ? '

And when, I asked her to dress his wound; for some reasons she pressed his blood soaked bandaid and hurted him !

So, I told her that I am gonna sue her for being so insensitive.

Her job is to serve the patients and not taking revenge on them by misusing their helplessness ! Did I said anything wrong to her ? "

I said crossing my arms.

" Ofcourse not.

You are absolutely right, Miss... "

Dominic pretended not to know my name.

" Ashley ! "

I said playing along.

" Yes, Miss. Ashley. "

Dominic said smiling.

" So when I said this to her, she blackmailed me that, I can't talk to her like that and she's gonna complaint against me to her senior.

So, I got her here, Mr. Allen ! "

I said shrugging.

" Miss. Alison ?

What is this ?

Is whatever she said is correct ? "

Dominic asked getting mad at her.

" Ummm...

Mr. Allen...

I... "

She didn't had the words which would save her.

" Answer my question, Miss. Alison !

Is she lying ? "

Dominic said raising his voice.

" No, Mr. Allen. "

Miss. Alison accepted.

" What shall I do with you now, Miss. Alison ? "

Dominic said crossing his arms.

" Please, Mr. Allen, forgive me.

I need this job so much.

I won't do this again ever to anyone.

Please."

Miss. Alison pleaded him.

Dominic looked at me and I asked him to let her go.

He smiled at me.

" Ok, fine.

This is your first and last chance Miss. Alison.

If you fucked up this one, are out of here !

Your job is to reduce the patient's pain not increase it !

Apologise to Miss. Ashley. "

Dominic said.

" I am so sorry, Miss. A... "

She was about to apologize to me.

But I don't want her apology.

" You didn't hurt me, apologise to whom you have hurted ! "

I said.

" I am sorry Mr. Baker.

I won't do it ever again.

Please forgive me ?

Please ?

Please ? "

She pleaded.

" It's alright, sister.

I have no hard feelings for you. "

Lauren said.

She left Dominic's cabin with her face down and ashamed.

The guys got in his cabin.

" What the fuck happened ?

What overwhelming moment ?

And what pressure ?

And after getting the wound dressed, instead of resting what the fuck are you doing here ? "

Dominic asked Lauren.

We told him what happened; ofcourse not about the kiss !

He heard and gave Derek and Lauren a meaningful look which I again didn't got !

What the hell they share among themselves and keep me from it ?

" Ok, enough chit chat !

Ash darling, you need to go home.

Derek, I already told you to take her home the moment she opens her eyes then, what the hell is she doing here still now ?

Take her home right away !

And feed her good."

Dominic ordered him.

" Doc, I'll go right away home, just tell me one thing, how is Cole ?

Is he out of danger ?

When will he come home ?

I...

I need to know that Doc, please. "

I pleaded him.

" Calm down, baby.

You panick too much.

He is alright.

He is out of danger now, don't worry about him.

Now, go home and take rest.

Derek, get her safely home and cook her something and give her the medicine, ok ? "

Dominic said.

" Yes, sir ! "

What a drama queen !

He saluted Dominic like he was some military officer and Derek is some junior accepting his command.

We all laughed at him and went to home !

As per according to our schedule, it was Derek's turn to be with me so, Jules went to court and Derek got me home.

He cooked the best pasta for me.

I ate more than I needed and took the pills Dominic gave me.

I went to the room alloted to me in my new home !

I laid on the bed and Derek came in.

" Hey, sexy ! "

He came and sat close to me and put his hand around my shoulder and pulled me closer to him.

God, he smells so good !

His scent is intoxicating; his natural scent of his body and sweat.

I rested my head on his chest and let myself loose in his arms.

My face was too close to his neck.

I nuzzled closer to his neck and he chuckled...

" Hey, that tickles ! "

Derek said chuckling.

I couldn't stop myself.

I grabbed his neck from the other side, pulled him closer and kissed his neck !

He gasped and went still and his eyes popped out in surprise.

He definitely wasn't expecting that !

God, what is wrong with me ?

Why can't I keep my hands off the guys when they are close to me ?

He didn't moved for fairly long moment, so I pulled my head off his chest and looked at him.

He looked at me and suddenly grabbed my face in his hands and pulled me in with a lightning fast speed and stopped a few inches from his lips.

It was visible that, he was trying hard not to loose his control he is having at himself !

He was breathing so shallow and fast.

He was looking at my lips a moment and in my eyes the other.

I could see the fire in his eyes, which was melting me there !

And finally he wispered...

" Can...

Can I kiss you Ash ? "

Why else would I have kissed your neck, stupid ? Ofcourse I want you to kiss me !

I looked into his eyes and nodded.

He then didn't wasted a single second and pressed his lips to mine.

He kissed me wild and hard.

I couldn't breathe and my lips started to ache and burn, yet it was feeling so awesome that, I didn't felt like asking him to stop !

I wrapped my arms around his neck and sat on his lap.

He pressed me onto his body real hard.

It was feeling like our bodies might become one if, he pressed me further.

His hands snaked up my back remembering for life.

He brought his hands up my back sending chills down my spine and I arched my back and my boobs reached his mouth.

If he just opened his lips, he could feel them !

He finally let my lips go and I was gasping for air so hard.

I was breathing fast and shallow to fulfill the lack of oxygen I just faced.

But I won't complaint, it was heaven !

He pulled me closer and sucked at my neck.

" Oh god !

Do...

Do it again... Please...

Oh god.

It feels so good...

So good, baby !

Please don't stop...

Mmmmmm.

Let me feel your lips on me...

Mmmmm...

Oh... "

Oh fuck !

What am I saying ?

Even I can't believe why did I just said it ?

I felt it so hot and so did he !

" Oh fuck, Ash.

You saying such things is turning me on so much...

You feel so good under my lips, sweetheart !

You taste even better and you are so soft.

I just can't get enough of you.

I just don't wanna stop kissing you eve... "

Derek didn't even finished what he was gonna say and sealed my lips once again.

I dug my fingers in his back at the heavenly kisses he showered me with, I am sure it's gonna leave marks on his back !

He grabbed my hair and pulled them back to get better excess to my neck and cleavage.

I thought he wasn't gonna stop kissing me ever, but he stopped !

And as much as I hate to admit it, I didn't liked him stopping in the middle of such a hot and sexy make out.

Why did he stopped ?

Doesn't he want me ?

I tried to get him back kissing me, but he didn't let me do that !

He didn't said anything just pulled me on his chest and wrapped his arms around me strongly.

I was still sitting on his lap.

And no, it's not that he doesn't want me.

I can feel how badly he wants me !

He just kept me there in his lap and in his arms.

He kissed my head every now and then but didn't moved on my body.

He patted my head and was caressing my back so sweetly, it felt very assuring that, he was there for me.

It felt very good in his arms.

Like I was some baby and he was trying to put me to sleep.

And if he was doing that, then he definitely succeed in his aim, I was feeling sleepy !

He loosened his grip on me and I could breathe peacefully, yet I liked it more to struggle to catch my breath.

" Ash love, you need to rest now.

Dominic asked me to let you sleep.

Would you be fine by yourself or you want me to stay with you here ? "

Derek asked softly.

I would love to sleep in his arms just like this, but he definitely don't want to continue this for some reasons and I respect his feelings.

If I asked him to stay here, I'd feel staring at him and won't sleep !

" I'll be alright, Derek. "

I said unwillingly.

" Great.

If you need anything, just press the button beside your bed and I'll be here whenever you want me to.

And go to sleep now. "

Derek said.

He lifted me up in the same pose as we were sitting; me on his lap and took me to bed.

He put me on the bed and caressed my face once and pressed his lips to mine one last time before leaving me alone in the room !

He wanted me to sleep, but the condition in which he left me; he better not expect me to sleep when my body needed him !

But I can't call him back and bug him.

I laid in bed and closed my eyes.

The memories started playing in my head like they were happening now !

How I met these guys, how they helped me in all situations, pampered me and spoiled me.

How they saved me and put their lives in risk for me !

I am not sure but still somewhere, I feel they've started not exactly LOVING me but, LIKING me by now.

No one does this much for a girl they accidentally hit by car !

And about me ?

I've already FALLEN; for each one of them EQUALLY !

As weird it sounds, it is true.

I can't even imagine my life without any one of them now.

Everyone is different yet, stole my heart like it never belonged to me.

And not only their hearts melted me, but their body keeps on calling me.

I love them touching me, kissing me, keeping me in their arms.

I am lusting for each one of them equally.

I don't want them to stop touching me once they start !

I've kissed Lauren, Dominic, Derek and even SLEPT with Jules !

And I loved them kissing me.

I can't compare their kisses like who is the best kisser among them.

They all are best !

Surprisingly, their passion for me is the same !

I loved how it felt when, I kissed Lauren.

It felt heaven when he wrapped the blanket around us and took me into his embrace and kissed me.

The way Jules kissed me lovingly and slowly and passionately made love to me.

The way Dominic kissed and sucked at my breasts, firstly to distract me from the pain and then, because he loved doing it !

The way Derek just lost control and handled me a bit roughly and couldn't keep his passion and eager to kiss me !

I only haven't kissed Cole !

I badly want to hug him.

I badly want him to crush me in his arms and kiss me like he've never kissed anyone before !