Chapter 7

"Wait you guys almost kissed?!"

I covered my hands over my face "Yes"

"So what happened?" Carly asked.

I was FaceTiming with Carly on my laptop the next morning. I was sitting on my bed with my legs crisscrossed in front of me.

I uncovered my face "Well I told him I couldn't do it then I ran away like an idiot"

"Well you are an idiot"

I opened my mouth in a gasp expression "Well thanks"

She laughed "I'm kidding! But you are kind of a jerk for just running away like that"

"I know"

"Are you going to talk to him?" She asked.

"Should I?"

She gave me a come on look "Duh! Okay let me ask you. How do you feel when your around him?"

I pursued my lips together "Well I get butterflies when I'm around him. I also get so nervous I feel like I'm going to puke, sometimes. When I'm not with him I want to be around him. Whenever he smiles it feels like my heart skips a beat. And his eyes, they just draw me in every time" My eyes were gliding off the computer screen.

"Okay how long have you known this guy?"

I looked at her and laughed "It just feels like I've known him for a long time. You know he was in he same Battalion as Liam, in Afghanistan"

"Hm maybe he knew him" She suggested.

I shrugged my shoulders "I doubt it"

"Well it sounds like you really have feelings for Jay. So show him how you feel. Liam would want you to be happy and move on"

I thought about it and nodded my head "Yea"

"I gotta go. Details later" She raised her eyebrows.

I laughed before she hung up. I closed my laptop and let out a soft sigh. I swung my legs over the bed and stood up. I reached for the ring inside my pocket and took it out. I let out a sigh before I laid it down on the nightstand. I walked out of the room.

I walked downstairs to see Kelly looking through the fridge.

"Hey" I said as I approached him.

"Hey" He said without looking at me. He took out a bottled water and closed the fridge.

"How was shift?" I asked as I leaned against the counter.

He took the cap off and took a long sip. He closed the cap "It was good, I'm still pretty tired so I'm gonna take a nap" He said as he began walking towards the stairs.

"Okay, I'm gonna get ready and head to work" I said as I followed him.

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After a long day of work instead of going home I went straight to Jay's apartment. I was still wearing my badge over my neck like a necklace but I didn't care. I approached his door and knocked a few times. I waited only about a minute until Jay opened the door halfway.

"Hey"

I almost wanted to smile when I saw his face but I felt guilty for what I had done. "Hey, can I talk to you?" I asked.

"Yea" He opened the door more and allowed me inside.

I walked inside and heard him close the door. I turned to him as I began to get nervous.

"What's up? Is everything okay?" He asked. I'm sure he noticed the worried look on my face.

"Yea, Yea. Look I'm really sorry about what happened last night" I said as I looked at him.

"Cassie it's okay"

I could feel my heart beating fast "No it's not. I really did want to kiss you it's just-"

Jay softly sighed "It's okay. I get that you don't feel the same way"

'Oh screw it!' I thought in my head. I took only one step to approach him. I had to very slightly tip toe. My lips crashed into his. Within a few small short seconds he kissed back. As we were kissing my mind was blank. I didn't think about Liam, or anything else. And it didn't feel wrong, it didn't really feel right either, it felt perfect.

We pulled apart slowly "But I do feel the same way" I said looking into his eyes.

"Well, my night just got a whole lot better"

I softly laughed. Jay brought his hand up and brushed his thumb on my cheekbone "You want watch the Blackhawks game with me?"

"You got beer?" I asked.

"Yea" He said nodding his head.

"Then I'm in" I raised my eyebrows as I walked over to the couch.

I heard him softly chuckle as he made his way towards his fridge.

~

The next day I walked down the stairs and approached the counter where Kelly was making breakfast. I wrapped the blanket around me.

"Holy crap, it's getting cold" I said with a soft shiver.

Kelly took out a plate and set it in front of me "Yea, apparently there's suppose to be a big storm that going to move in soon. Suppose to bring heavy snow and wind" He took out a cup and filled it with coffee.

"When is that?" I asked.

"Within the next few days I think. Maybe a little later"

I blew into my coffee.

"I left my phone charging in my room. I'll be back" He said as he began walking to the stairs.

"K" I said as I continued to blow into my hot coffee. My phone in my pocket buzzed. I grabbed it from my sweats and pulled it out. I expected to see Jay's name but it came to my surprise when I didn't.

I stared at the message for a few minutes. I swallowed that nervous lump sitting in the back of my throat. I put the phone down and clicked the button on the side of my phone to make the screen go black. Kelly came back and continued to make breakfast.

I took a small sip of the coffee as I thought about that text message. Who would send me that message. Why would they send that?

"You work today?"

I stared off into space as I continued to think about that message.

"Cassie? Cassie?" Kelly snapped his fingers at me.

I snapped out of it "Huh?"

He softly chuckled "Do you work today?"

"Uh, yea I do"

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