“You can call me when you’re lonely. I’ll be your temporary fix.”

Those were the words that he said to me and it was plain simple, he wanted nothing but s*x and I wanted nothing more than to.

I was the kind of girl who was too scared of falling in love again because I feel like there is something more in life than being mournful over a guy who never actually gave a hell. I deserve something more than pain and misery over a stupid heartbreak. Since then, I got too scared of commitment that I no longer wanted to be in one. I wanted fun and I wanted to feel like I am alive again.

He was the kind of guy who was too busy for permanent relationships. The superstar that all women wanted to bang with. The kind of guy who would have any girls kneel in front of him because well, he is that kind of guy. He was a guy with a hectic schedule, sold out world tours, drinking champagne in private jets, holding a mic in one hand, and conquering all over the world in the other.

Maybe I needed someone to show me how to live again and he needed someone to show me how to love.

You Can Call Me

　　Everyone buzzed about our well-deserve break from showbiz and I'm torn between being excited for it and not. The entire band decided to have that even though the management was totally against it.


　　I think I needed this hiatus more than anyone else in the band. I wanna think about the things that happened lately and my contract with Scanty is almost about to end. I am sure that I won't be renewing with them and I'm signing up to Jeff Azoff's. Somewhat he's my great friend and I trust him on handling me.


　　When we ended the OTRA Tour, it was at Sheffield on October 31st year 2015. I haven't seen Tate since we broke up last June 9th and it was the most tragic. Every time we have a day off from all the touring, I always go to New York to see her and maybe talk things with her even if New York was way far from where I was staying. I always find time for her but she didn't.


CHAPTER 179 : "Lionheart"