133. Chapter 133

“It’s fine, Danvers. You don’t – you don’t owe me anything. It’s fine.”

“Maggie what – what are you talking about?”

“I screwed up, Alex. I screwed up, and you’re gonna leave, and what the hell, it was gonna happen anyway – “

“Wait, Maggie, why the hell would I leave you?”

“You’ve done it before, after our first night together – “

“Yeah, because I was being stupid and I panicked, but Maggie, you told me I got one, and I took that seriously. I take you seriously, Maggie. I’m not going anywhere.”

Maggie looks up at her, finally, takes her hands away from her face, finally, lets her hands fall as her elbows balance on her spread knees.

“Then why’d you come over, if you didn’t want to get your stuff and leave?”

Alex kneels in front of her, and Alex stares, and Alex thinks, and Alex’s heart shatters because Maggie looks so broken.

She takes Maggie’s hands into hers, and her looks up into her face and she tries, she tries so hard, to let Maggie see every ounce of love she has for her.

“I came over to make sure you’re okay. To make sure we’re okay.”

“Alex, I called you and your entire organization out on its policies in front of your entire organization.”

“And you… weren’t entirely wrong.”

“Alex – “

“Maggie, bad things happen. In our line of work, they happen all the time.” Maggie starts to object to Alex using her own logic to her, but Alex keeps talking, and Maggie lets her, because she’s never felt this before, this calm insistence that everything’s going to be alright, that she didn’t destroy everything, that she’s not completely worthless.

“And sometimes, we react to those bad things. Sometimes, we react to those bad things publicly, in front of all our girlfriend’s colleagues.”

Maggie scoffs and wipes away a small tear and Alex leans up and kisses her forehead.

“I’m not going anywhere, Maggie. Not without you. I did my running, and now I’m done. Okay?”

“Alex – “

“Okay?”

“Okay.”

“I brought pizza.”

“Mmm, a forgiving girlfriend and she’s a mindreader, what do I have to look forward to next?”

“Being loved, Maggie. Being loved.”