chapter thirty eight

after a while he let go of her and he wanted to say something but he was distracted by her wet hair, he went inside and got her a towel,

when he got the towel, he dried Joan's hair,

he was worried she might get sick

"sorry, I almost caused you to be sick, I guess I can never do anything right" he said as he dried her hair

during that moment Joan never talked to him but when he looked at her there was tears in her eyes, she was really hurt when he started avoiding her.

she wondered every time what she had done wrong, didn't he knew how important he was to her and how could he cut her off just like that, how could he forget her and how could he even live without her and how could he go on as if she doesn't exist, that was what she felt and at the moment wanted to scream at him.

Everytime she was with her friends her mind was always on him, she only smiled with them because she was trying to convince herself that even she could live without him, but once she got home, she will always cry.

one-day she decided to go see him again despite the numerous attempts failed, when she got there she saw him laughing with Leticia

" I guess he's alright, he just removed me from his side, it's okay Joan" she said as she smiled but was she really ok.

no she wasn't, she couldn't believe that Nick was not by her side and he might never be again. There were times that she would always call Callum, Nick. there were times too when she was alone she will pretend he was there, that was how much she wanted Nick but he didn't feel what she felt, he easily let her go.

after all he once asked her not to depend on him and that he wasn't going to be around always, she guess he really meant it.

but what can she do, her heart ache

"don't worry Joan, if he wants to forget you then you can too" she just said that two weeks ago and now he was here, hugging her.

that was how miserable she felt.