To Papa

Hi Papa,

There is so much you missed, but there is so much to learn about me.

So many days, months, and years go by, and I wish I could hate you but oh, how I love you...

Why did you leave me behind?

Was I not enough?

Don't you want to know more about me?

Who is going to walk me down the aisle and give me away? I rather be traditional...

I don't want my children to ask me, "Do I not have a grandpa?"

I am tired of doing the heavy lifting. I want your love. I want to forgive you. I am yearning to.

If you start now, I'll forgive the past. I don't want to be without. It feels empty when you are not around.

I don't hate you as much as I wish I could.

Can't you see that it's all a facade?

Another Christmas

Another birthday

Another new year...

Let's not make it another without each other.

I don't want to lose hope forever, infinity.

Begging,

your little girl

P.S. my deepest darkest thoughts...