(( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension ))


Merely a punk .
That's all I was, an idiot 
telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. 
The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the drug dealers. Now and then some beers .

I never planned anything or cared for anything since I always knew how pointless everything was . I was one human out of a millions. My existence wasn't worth more than than an ants. 
It's merely a waste of time.

It has always been dark .

until I met a spark.

Beautiful and pure . Something so rare and special that I couldn't take my eyes off of him . Yes him. 
I hated him for changing me .

But No matter how much I tried to push him away .
He wouldnt leave, because he knew me better than I did myself 
he knew I needed him . 
But he needed me too.

Man they thought I was fucked up .
But it's the ones who don't show .

My name is Kim Jongin and 
this isn't my story

It's Do Kyungsoos .

Intoxic Dose (kaisoo) 

/"you ok ?/" Alay appeard at my side again. I sighed shrugging my shoulder

Usually I would murder her and everyone else only to end up blaming them for it . Blaming someone else for it .but I didn't feel like that now .

I pulled my phone out looking at my contacts .

I always clicked her away not knowing that she had needed me.

It was something normal to me to just ignore her and act like she didn't existed simply because I didn't want to be reminded of what I've done to her .

/"just leave it /" I continued to walk opening the appointment book again .

After I turned the volume of my phone up . I won't click anyone away anymore . Well except for alay of corse

/"at least You're mum still wants contact with you .. i'm pretty much dead to my family /" she laughed emptily and I slowed down a little .

Don't leave me