(( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension ))


Merely a punk .
That's all I was, an idiot 
telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. 
The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the drug dealers. Now and then some beers .

I never planned anything or cared for anything since I always knew how pointless everything was . I was one human out of a millions. My existence wasn't worth more than than an ants. 
It's merely a waste of time.

It has always been dark .

until I met a spark.

Beautiful and pure . Something so rare and special that I couldn't take my eyes off of him . Yes him. 
I hated him for changing me .

But No matter how much I tried to push him away .
He wouldnt leave, because he knew me better than I did myself 
he knew I needed him . 
But he needed me too.

Man they thought I was fucked up .
But it's the ones who don't show .

My name is Kim Jongin and 
this isn't my story

It's Do Kyungsoos .

Intoxic Dose (kaisoo) 

/"kyungsoo !/" I called reaching over the table when he ended up just starring down onto the grey surface of it . It looked like he was in trance or something .

He did that once or twice but not for long maybe it was a different kind of seizure or a side effect of his pills. This time it was weird ... well more weird than usual since it took a little longer now.

He didn't respond and I snapped my finger in front of him

/"sunshine /" I attempted it like this , he was always giving me even more attention than I needed when I call him sunshine .

But I guess that didn't count or was important to him while having this weird as fuck trance .

I sighed getting up and sitting down besides him .

/"kyungsoo /" my arm slowly sneaked around him and I leaned him against me feeling how tensed he was as if he was using every muscle in his body to stay still .

Say it again