"I am pregnant, " I say looking into his eyes intensely but his face is emotionless. 

"what? " he asks stunned, he paces around for a few minutes "I can't take care of a child right now" he snaps holding the office table tightly. 

"We have to because I have no way to go," I say pleading for acknowledgment and understanding. 

"what do you mean, " he said eyeing me suspiciously. 

"my parent disowned me," I say looking down in shame. 

"I will take you in but don't expect me to care for you and your baby because all this means nothing to me" he glanced at me before walking out of his office. 

Tears run down my cheek, feeling of embarrassment, and lost claws in my heart. 

I lost everything my family, my self-esteem, I feel lost and worthless.

Most of all I lost love.

VERDICT OF LOVE

Have you ever been confronted with a question on your mind but you keep running away wishing it will just uphold until you had the answer.

And here I am with Mum Eliana, Shane, Chole, and a nurse in my room all staring at me while I gape like a horse caught on a headlight.

/"Shiloh?/" Chole calls snapping into my thought /" what name are you giving to the baby?/" She asks with a smile on her face.

If only she knows what dilemma I am in with just that simple topic, don't get me erroneous I have a first name for this baby but I can't seem to make a discussion on the last name and that when my dilemma started.

But come to think of it should not be cogitating over this matter because my last name Sante should be perfect but then again I can't let my son have a last name which brings the thought of loneliness and not of a Family.

Chapter28