Bokuto 2

"What the heck? Are you seriously giving that to him?" Yukie asked when he saw the ring that I ordered that I'm planning to give Akaashi on our anniversary.

It is a silver Celtic owl wedding band with infinity symbol pattern.

Yukie's laughter echoed in the store that made me blushed me because of her reaction. I regret asking her to come with me here. I should have asked Hinata with me but I'm afraid he'll expose me to Akaashi before I could even propose properly.

I sighed when I remembered how long Akaashi cried in the bathroom last night that made me regret what I've been doing to him.

I want to start a new life with him.

I want to start over.

I want to forget all the painful things after we talked it over and live like how I want us to be.

Live like a normal loving couple.

That's what my heart says while watching him cry on his sleep while clutching to my shirt so tight. I want us to start anew so I bought this ring. He's the only one I want to spend the rest of my life with anyway. It's hard to breathe just the thought of him leaving me. So, before it happens, I'll make my move now. I want to end both of our suffering.

I want to forgive him.

We went to Akaashi's favorite store after and buy a cake for him. He likes sweet so while waiting for my order, Yukie and I talked a bit more.

"Did you finally talk about it? The thing Konoha said to you? Is that why you both a wedding band?" Yukie asked while sipping on her iced tea.

I shook my head and smiled sweetly.

"I'm going to talk about it with him during our anniversary. Whether it's true or not, I'll tell him to cut off all his connections with Konoha and marry me. After all, he's the one I love. I can't see myself loving anyone else than him." I admitted that made Yukie smiled in happiness.

She gently holds my hand with a sweet smile on her lips.

"I'm giving you all my support. I'm glad and relieved at the same time that finally, you won't be an asshole. I feel sorry for Akaashi because of your stubbornness to settle things properly. I can't talk to him though because he might get hurt if I told him what I know and it might cause a misunderstanding. I'm still your ex after all." She said after removing her hands on mine.

I chuckled and take a sip on my iced tea before looking at the glass window. I almost stand up on my seat when I saw Akaashi and Konoha across the street looking at us. I couldn't tell Akaashi's expression and before I could even read his expressions, Konoha made him turn around and hugged him that startled not only Yukie but everyone near us when I smashed the glass of iced tea on our table. Pouring the contents on the table, making my hand bleeds because of the shattered glass.

Like always...

When I decided to just forget everything and start anew...

This bastard always come in the picture...

Ruining everything.

"Kou-chan!" Yukie shouted my name but I am already blinded with jealousy.

I went outside and left Yukie to follow Akaashi but it's only Konoha who was left on the scene with an annoying smirk on his face.

"Why are you with him? I already told you to stop meeting him!" I said angrily but he just looked at me not even affected on my rage.

"Why don't you just let him go and get back together with Yukie? Your relationship with Akaashi won't be fixed anyway." He said that riled me up so I punch him in the face making Yukie shout in nervousness.

"Hey stop it Kou!" Yukie tried to stop me when I was about to hit Konoha again who just laughed and looked at me without any remorse on his face.

"Sooner or later, Akaashi will end things with you. Keep it up Bokuto-san. Keep hurting him until he became numb." He said before leaving me and Yukie.

I tried to follow him but Yukie stopped me.

"Don't! Let's just wait to your house. It's starting to rain too, for sure Akaashi will go home. Let's just wait him there. If Akaashi pushed him away, then there's no way he'll go to Konoha." She said that somehow calmed me a little.

But I'm still scared.

What if Akaashi really leave me now?

Is that why he said last night to stay a little bit more?

Is he really planning on leaving me?

Those were my thoughts until Yukie and I arrived to my apartment. I feel devastated when I didn't see him. I wanted to call him or message him but my pride is stopping me on doing so.

I didn't do anything wrong.

I didn't cheat on him.

I do hurt him deliberately but I did not cheat.

It's because of him and Konoha.

It's because of Konoha's words.

That I ended up this twisted and hateful.

I heaved a sigh. I want to erase Konoha's words in my mind but it just keeps coming back to me.

"Kou... Why does Konoha bothers you so much? I feel that he's lying about this thing with Akaashi but why can't you see it?" Yukie asked that made me smiled sadly.

"Why can't I feel bothered with him? When he is the only person who can make Akaashi laugh." I said sadly.

And as the rain tattooed on the roof. My mind went back to that time where it all started.