Bokuto 6

"You're losing weight Bo-kun. Are you still eating properly? Have some of this and stop drinking!" Atsumu said before giving me a plate of grilled meat to eat.

We're currently in our favorite pub together with some of our team mate coz it's Atsumu's birthday. It's been like six months. And in all those months that passed, I did nothing but to drink and go to practice matches. I rarely eat because I don't have an appetite. If I ate a lot, I'll just throw it up so I only eat a little. Even my coach and captain scolded me for acting like this but since I'm still functioning normally when I'm in court, they just let me do what I want.

The private detective I hired to look for Akaashi still doesn't give me any updates at all and it's pissing me off. It's been six months but I still haven't heard anything from him.

"Stop drinking Bokuto-san and eat something else. Do you want Akaashi to see you in this sorry state?" Tsukishima scolded after snatching the mug of beer from me when I didn't take even a single bite on the food, they gave me.

I smiled sadly to them.

"I'm losing hope that I'll still see him. He left as if he doesn't want to be found." I said and sighed.

"Bokuto-san I know how hard it is but you shouldn't forget that you need to be strong and healthy. Akaashi-san loves to see you in your 120% when playing volleyball right? Who knows? Maybe he's watching you from afar." Hinata said that somehow lifts my spirit up so I take a bite on the meat Atsumu gave me.

They looked at each other when I started eating and sighed as they watch me eats with tears streaming down my face. I know it's false hope but just thinking that he might be watching me somewhere gives a faint hope in my heart that one of these days, I'll meet him again.

"Let's go to my twin's store after this. He's having a party on his own, let's join them." Atsumu said after I finished eating.

I'm not close with his twin but I don't want to go home yet. I will just drown myself in loneliness if I go home still sober. I just had a mug of beer and my second mug got snatched by Tsukishima. I'm quiet on our way to Samu's store while these two couples walked in front of me making me missed Akaashi more. I tried to suppress my tears to not make them feel bad for having this fucked up person with them.

After all, it's my fault why Akaashi left me.

He got tired loving this twisted person.

He got tired staying with me.

I sighed and entered the store just to be surprised when I saw a smiling Akaashi beside Osamu.

And it breaks my heart.

He smiled again but not for me.

My blank gaze went to Akaashi who avoids my eyes. And it's killing me slowly.

Look at me, Akaashi. My mind pleads but he won't even give me a glance.

"W-why are you here?"

Tsumu asked breaking the silence between us after seeing my beloved person with his twin. I guess he doesn't know why they're together. Or the reason why Samu has a contact with Akaashi.

Even I don't know how come they're together. I knew that they got acquainted because Akaashi likes the taste of his onigiri but I never thought that I will see him here. And the answer to that was given when he placed his arm to Akaashi's shoulder.

"Why? Am I not allowed to invite my lover to my birthday?" Samu said that made us surprised.

Who won't be?

When someone else claim what yours as theirs.

"Lover? Since when? As far as I remember, he's mine. He's my lover who run away from home!" I said with a pissed off look on my face.

I glared at his arms on my Akaashi's shoulder. I'm trying to keep my nerves calm as possible because I want to take back what's mine without making everything a mess. He's still Tsumu's twin and I don't want to complicate things between us. But it seems that he's testing my patience when he leaned closer to Akaashi and whispered something. I wanted to grab Akaashi away from him if not only because of Tsukishima who keep on shaking his head to not do something stupid again.

"H-hey Samu. Don't j-joke around like that. Ya know Akaashi is B-Bo-kun's-"

Akaashi stood up and smiled to us. It's heartbreaking because he didn't even deny what Samu said.

Did you really forget about me, Akaashi?

Our years of being together, you already moved on for just the span of six months?

I know I only gave you heartaches but...

How can you forget me that easily?

I still love you, Akaashi.

Those were my thoughts while staring at his beautiful face.

"I'll go now, Samu. Happy Birthday Tsumu." He cut off Atsumu's words and tap Samu's shoulder. And without clearing anything about their relationship, he walked towards the door and leave.

I was about to follow him when Samu stopped me.

"Can you please stop disturbing my Akaashi? He's doing fine now without you." He said that made me looked back at him with rage written on my face when he gives emphasis on the word 'my'.

"What did you say? My Akaashi? When did he became yours?" I laughed in a threatening voice but it doesn't affect him at all, instead the grin on his face remained.

"H-hey Samu. S-stop this nonsense." He just looked at Tsumu blankly to shut him up and stood up on his seat while he locked his gaze on mine.

"When? I marked him as mine after he left you and choose to come with me six months ago."

I was lost for words on what he said.

So, all this time he's with this cunning fox?

"W-what? H-how?" Tsumu asked but his twin ignored him.

He walked towards me and without breaking our eye contact, he whispered this words that make it hard for me to breathe because of two reasons; heartache and rage.

"He chose me."

My hand curled into fist as he continued his speech.

"I filled the sadness you gave him with happiness. And now he's doing great without you. So back off. He's mine."

I couldn't contain my anger after I heard the last two words that came out from his filthy mouth so I punched him that thrown him off the ground before I followed Akaashi. I saw him about to go to the second floor of Osamu's store where his apartment is located. I saw that cunning fox handed him a key so I know that he will come here.

I grabbed Akaashi and pushed him on the concrete, imprisoning him with the wall behind him and my body that is trembling in anger after hearing that he was with that fox all these time that he's gone.

"Is it true?! You're with him in the past six months that you're gone missing?!" I asked trying not to shout even though my blood is boiling because of that cunning fox.

My heart and mind are fighting because as much as I'm annoyed knowing that he's with that bastard for six months, I missed him.

I miss Akaashi so much that just the sight of him is making me want to cry it all out.

My regrets.

Akaashi remained silent on my question while looking at me with perturbed expression.

Who won't be?

I acted all cold before but know I'm like this.

Who won't be?

When someone is claiming him as theirs.

"That bastard dared to tell me that you're his?! When did we broke up? We never did Akaashi!" I said furiously that made his brows knot.

"I left you a letter-"

"What? That piece of paper telling me that I'm free? I never approved of it Akaashi. You just left on your own! And now someone else is claiming that you're his!?"

He gasped in shock and fear when I punched the wall behind him while I angrily glared at him. The pain brought by his disappearance and knowing that he was with someone else for the past months that he's gone is more painful than the wound in my hand made by punching that damn wall behind him.

"I'm..." Akaashi looked at me in the eye with a cold expression.

And even when I'm ready for it...It's painful to see the person you love looked at you this way.

Is this what you felt when you're with me?

He sighed.

"I already said in the letter what I wanted to say. If it's not clear to you, then I'll say it now. Let's break u-"

I cut off his words by kissing him. I claimed his lips, grabbing him on his nape and pulled him closer while my other hand is cupping his face, pinning him on the wall behind him with my body making it hard for him to escape.

I don't want to hear it.

His 'Let's break up' line.

Akaashi tried to push me away but I didn't let him. I never had this chance before, kissing him the way I really want to. I changed my way of kissing him, from being forceful to being gentle, licking his lips that got chapped from my forceful kiss earlier.

His lips taste heavenly. And I missed him so much that it makes me want to take him right here when he kissed me back.

He responded to my kisses and even put his arms on my nape, giving me more access to deepen our kiss.

Making me want to do more.

Making me want to show him the love I never showed before.

Making my heart aches for him more.

"Akaashi..." I whispered his name that made him come back to his senses and pushed me away.

I gently touch his blushing face and brushed his lips with my thumb while looking at him with longing.

I don't care how long it'll take me to make him trust me again...

I just want him to come back to me for now and start over.

"Let's go-"

Before I could finish my words, Osamu pulled Akaashi away from me and hide him on his back.

"He's not coming with you." Osamu declared that made my brows creased.

"Who are you to say that?" I said in irritation.

"Me? Did you forget already what I said earlier? Keiji's mine. So back off!" Osamu said.

I snapped when he called Akaashi on his first name while claiming him as his. So, I punched him on the face but this time I also got hit by his fist that angers me more. I pushed him on the ground and starts punching him when Akaashi tried to stop me that gave Osamu a chance to push me away and kick me on my stomach making me lay on the ground. Now it's his turn to get on top of me and punch me hard.

"Samu! Bokuto-san! stop it!" Akaashi shouted but the way he called this cunning fox's name angers me more.

Samu? You're using first name basis now? When you just called me Koutarou once?!

"Hey Samu! Stop it!" Tsumu tried to pull his twin away from me that made Samu punched him too.

"It's your damn fault you stupid fox!" Samu said in anger while punching his twin.

I get up and tapped his shoulder to punch him when he looked at me. Tsumu tried to pull me away from his twin but I punch him instead for interfering in our fight.

"Bo-kun! That hurts you, stupid owl!" Atsumu cried in anger.

And that's how the three of us started our brawl.

I didn't care if we caught people's attention. Right now, all I want is to release this frustration, this anger and this raging jealousy I have when I learned about him being together for six months.

"STOP!"

My fist paused in the air before it hits to Samu's face, while Samu stopped his hands mid-air for punching Tsumu and Tsumu stopped from punching me when I heard that shout. Our eyes went to Kita-san who looked at us coldly while beside him is Akaashi who looked like he's about to cry, together with our friends and some by-stander.

"HOW DARE YOU MAKE A SCENE HERE, YOU LOWLIFE PUNKS?!" Kita-san asked that made the two foxes stand straight with their hands on their back so I did the same.

I'm not scared. It's just my instinct telling me to do the same if I still want to live.

"Follow me you lowlife punks." He said and went back to the store that made us follow him in silence. But before I went inside, I looked back to Akaashi and gazed at him with my eyes filled with sadness.

"Akaashi..."

He just remained silent and looked away from me. But even though it hurts, I still tell him the words I wanted to say since he left.

"Akaashi come back home." I said that finally made him looked at me.

But my heart breaks bits by bits when he didn't respond and just walked past me to enter the store. Leaving me remembering the words that Tsukishima told me after telling them what I did to Akaashi.

When you meet again, I just hope it wasn't too late for you to take him back. Because knowing Akaashi-san, once he decided something...

There's nothing you can do to make him change his mind.