Bokuto 8

"It's rare for you to come here. What's up bro?" I asked Kuroo when I saw him waiting for me outside my apartment after I went for a jog. Kuroo opened a new can of beer and take a sip to it first before he answered me with his eyes looked worried about me.

"You don't really have to act tough in front of me bro. I know you're still hurting because of Akaashi." He said that made me laugh sadly.

It's been two months since I last saw Akaashi. I tried to fix myself first before I face him again. I want to be a better person when I ask him out this time. I'm just giving him time to forget all the pain I caused since he's back in Tokyo now. I just don't know where he's staying at but I heard from Tsuki that he went back to his former work place.

As for Atsumu, I learned from him that he really didn't know that his twin is the one responsible for Akaashi's disappearance but he admitted that Osamu has feelings for Akaashi even before. I guess I really focused to the wrong person. Who would've thought that there's a cunning fox aiming to what's mine even way before? And I couldn't blame them.

Akaashi is just too beautiful.

Especially when he smiled sweetly.

I sighed when I feel that prickling pain my chest upon remembering Akaashi's smile to Osamu.

"Yeah. It's painful but I'm planning to take him back. But this time, I'll treat him better." I said with conviction that made Kuroo's brows creased.

"What do you mean take him back?" I was a little confused on his facial expression but I still tell him what I mean.

"It's just what it means. I'm going to ask him to be mine again. I love Akaashi and there's no one I want to spend the rest of my life with, other than him." I said in a serious tone that made Kuroo looked at me weirdly.

"Bro... didn't you know?"

My forehead furrowed on his question. "Know about what?"

Kuroo became silent for a moment, deliberating with himself if he should tell it to me or not.

"Is there something I needed to know?" I asked that made Kuroo sighed in defeat.

"He's dating Miya Osamu now. And if I'm not mistaken, they're living together since he came back here in Tokyo." Kuroo said and it make my chest tightened in pain.

I tried to deny it. There's no way he can move on like that. That he can unlove me in just the span of two months.

I let out a tensed laugh.

"It's impossible. Maybe you're just mistaken-"

Kuroo showed me a picture on Osamu's Instagram and saw a cropped picture of Akaashi full of his marks. But what made my heart stopped beating is the caption and Akaashi's reply.

I didn't know I could be this possessive. Finally, you're mine. I love you my Aachi

- Miya Osamu

Thank you for loving this sinner. I love you too Myaa-sam

- Akaashi Keiji

You made me a sinner, but I don't want to repent.

- Miya Osamu

I put down Kuroo's phone after and just keep on drinking without saying a thing. I'm out of words to say. I'm out of emotions to feel. Most of our friends knew about it since I saw their names liking the post and their comments. And I feel betrayed somehow.

I feel like an empty vessel.

I guess it's really too late now to get him back.

It's too late to make him mine again.

I couldn't take this suffocating pain I feel. All I want is to see Akaashi again so I stand up and about to leave when Kuroo tried to stop me from leaving.

"B-bro... Don't do something stupid." Kuroo said that made me smile painfully. Even my best friend is stopping me to see my Akaashi again.

I know it's stupid...

But I really just want to see him again.

To tell him the things I couldn't.

"I won't. I just want to see him. I won't do anything stupid." I said and pushed his hand away and went out of the house.

I immediately hailed a cab to Akaashi's workplace when I asked Hinata's help to ask Akaashi where he is. My heart feels heavy on my way to Akaashi's workplace. I don't even know what to say to him now that he's finally someone else's lover.

Now that Osamu marked him.

My eyes sparkled when I saw Akaashi just came out of the building but the happiness I felt when I saw him disappeared when he looked and smiled on his left, and there I saw Osamu, a few steps away from me, waiting for him with a wide smile plastered on his lips, his eyes glimmering in happiness upon seeing the most beautiful person that I know.

I took the ring box that I always have on my pocket. Tears fell in my eyes when I heard Akaashi's sweet voice calling Osamu with endearment.

"Myaa-sam! I got free tickets to a theme park for my birthday. Do you want to go?" Akaashi asked excitedly.

I smiled bitterly while listening to their conversation. They are not even aware that I'm here as if it's just the two of them in this world.

Tears keep on streaming down my face while looking at Akaashi's beautiful smile while on the arms of someone else.

Someone other than me.

It's painful.

It's suffocating.

It's unbearable.

I wanted to take him away from those arms but if I do, Akaashi will only hate me more.

"Sure... Everything for my Aachi." Samu said before planting a soft kiss on Akaashi's lips that the latter immediately responded lovingly.

My heart breaks into a thousand pieces when I see them kissing passionately. My grasp on the ring box I'm holding tightened as I turned my back on them and leave with my head down.

And as tears stream down my face...

I walked my way back home.

With nothing but...

Emptiness.

I took my phone when it rings and smiled bitterly when I saw Miya Atsumu's name flashes on the screen. Thinking if I should answer it or not, because of what I just found out.

"Bo-kun..." Atsumu sounded troubled when I finally chose to answer his call.

"What is it?" I asked coldly from the other line.

"It's about Akaashi... I just found about it three days ago and I'm not sure if I should tell it or not but-"

"I know." I sighed.

I can't get mad at them. It wasn't their fault if they hide it from me.

"Y-you k-know? H-how?" He asked that made me laughed painfully when I remembered the kiss Akaashi and Osamu shared.

"B-bo-kun you're making me worry." Atsumu said from the other line when my laughed turned into a cry.

"Seeing him happy with someone else makes me want to die, Tsumu." I cried that made Atsumu frantic on the other line.

I don't care if people looked at me crying my heart out as I walked past them. I couldn't stop it any longer...

The pain is too much to bear.

The pain is killing me.

Slowly.

And in my mind, the memory of their passionate kiss flashes like a movie clip.

Stabbing my heart.

Deeply.

And...

Untreatably.