Chapter 95

Miguel's pov

"Thank you Luna." 

"The Alphas won't be happy if they hear of this," Richard glared at the male. He looks ready to do away with him if I so much as give him a sign.

" It's for me to take care of right?" I look at the male on the floor " you can go." 

He looks up at me in surprise " thank you Luna," he  says before scurrying off faster than I would have thought possible.

"I hope you don't regret your decision," a still scowling Richard said.

"Thank you," I  smile "for saving me." 

"Am only doing my job, you don't have to thank me," he murmurs, his gaze still towards the place they male ran towards.

" Aren't you going on the trip? " I  asked when I recalled the words of the Alphas when they walked past me.

"No," he shakes his head "I was given another task here." 

"task? what task?" then it dawned on me "you were asked to follow me?"

That actually hurts.

It means the Alphas doesn't trust me enough that they sent someone to watch me from the dark.

Although I might say it actually worked in my favour, but still it hurts.

"They couldn't protect you as of now, and Bianca asked to be given a break. I was the one sent to keep you safe," Richard answers.

" Safe?"

" I don't know what you did to the Alphas; I've never seen them as hurt as they were when they came home.

Not even that incidence years ago made them as sad and angry as they were last night," he narrows his glare at me " what ever it is you're doing, or You've done, have it in mind that I will come after you if you destroy them."

he says before walking out " go home before something else happens to you. As much as I would have liked to leave you here to the mercies of the wild, I couldn't do that for fear of what it will do to the Alphas."

His words made me more guilty than I was. 

" Where are they now?" I need to make amends for what I did.

" Somewhere you wouldn't be able to reach," Richard gives me a look before he turned to resume his walk.

*

"Somewhere you wouldn't be able to reach,"  Richard's words kept replaying in my head.

Why am I selfish? 

Why do I want to have my cake and eat it?

In my bid to have both Manuel's friendship and the Triplets' love, I've lost their love.

i should have listened to Bianca.

I shouldn't have agreed to follow him there knowing about the warnings I've been given.

"Mom am home!" I  shout despite the heaviness in my heart.

It hurts to finally have what you want,and end up losing it.

It hurts more than it did when they haven't confessed to me. It hurts more to think of what am missing. 

It hurts so much I can't breathe, 

"Your lunch is in the kitchen," mom  called out from the parlour.

Ever since last night, she've taken to ignoring me, only telling me basic things, but never initiating a conversation like she've known to do.

i guess she's disappointed in me.

I will also be disappointed in myself if am in her shoes( literally).

I walked upstairs to my room without bothering to check on my lunch.

My appetite haven fled when the triplets left me last night.

My body too shaken by what happened to open up to food..

Nothing have shaken me more than their departure yesterday; not even when I was kidnapped, and certainly not my almost rape moments ago.

I flopped down on the bed

"am sorry,"  I cried into the pillow.

Am sorry for being a selfish mate, am sorry I didn't tell you what you wanted to know of last night. Am sorry.

My phone dinged with a message.

Unknown: are you up for some movie?

I stared at my screen

Me: please who are you?

Unknown: Manuel

My heart skipped a beat

Me: how did you get my number?

Manuel: It doesn't matter, the end justifies the means. So tell me, are you up for a movie?

Me: No

I don't need to think about it to give him an answer; I've already made up my mind to shun everything relating to Manuel.

He was the cause of the misunderstanding I have with the triplets, and frolicking with him will not only distance my relationship with my triplets, but it will make it seem like cheating on them with their cousin.

He must be feeling bad by now because of my prompt and curt reply, but I can't allow myself to be swayed by him.

He might look like he needs a friend who will make him feel less I desirable, but I can't jeopardize my already sullen relationship with the Alphas by making friends with him.

My phone rang, and I picked it up without a second thought.

"What do you mean by no?" he asked,

"I don't feel like watching any movie tonight. I want to have a little rest,"  I lied.

Thinking of what happened yesterday when I went to the forest with, it made me decide against having anything to do with him.

" I might not be near you this instant, but I know a lie when I hear one Miguel, and you're lying,"  he paused " are you trying to avoid me?"

My heart skipped a beat at his question. How do I go about answering him? 

"No, it's not like that. I just feel a little bit under the weather today,"  I answered.

" If you're not avoiding me as you claimed why then can't you spend a little time with me?" he sounds hurt.

More like a chidk whose being denied what they actually wants.

" i told you, am tired." 

" You sure are avoiding me, " he sounds resigned " bye Miguel, see...."

" where should we meet?" i asked him. The sound of pain in his voice is making me feel bad for being the cause of it.

I really hate hurting people especially when I know how best to make them feel better.

"Are you really want coming with me?" he have a hopeful tone to his voice.

i sighed "yes."