Chapter 378

Eras grins. He smiles shyly and i feel he thinks that he should tread safer ground. 

I feel he thinks he should tread a more safer ground with me but yet he cannot.

He cannot because I am now fully involved in this.

"I mean exactly what would you be looking for, what exactly are you looking for?".

I have a faint idea of it, I have a faint idea of it and I've practically gotten what it's all about.

With the way that he's simply looked at me with a very pointed look whenever we spoke about this thing that he was looking for i suspect him, but still I have to be sure of this.

"This thing that you're looking for, does it have anything to do with me?, does it have anything to do with us?".

My voice has dropped low to a whisper now, my voice has dropped low to a whisper and I wonder exactly how Scott would take this.

If he caught us talking like this, in the dead of the night.

It's not like I'm scared of my younger brother, alright I'm scared of him but I'm not scared of him in that way.

It hasn't been two months since i had broken up with Aron now, it hasn't been up to three months since I had broken up with him but yet a lot of things have happened.

A lot of things have happened as two people have come into my life, two people who have come into my life and two people I do not understand.

 They make me unimaginably happy and I'm guessing that they are the reason why I seem to have recovered from Aron's breakup this quickly. They are the reason why I seem to have recovered from his break up this fast and he's still on my mind.

He is still on my mind, i have avoided him, avoided him at school, avoided him in class, I have made sure that our paths will not cross at all and I have to say that I'm succeeding considerably at this.

For some reason Oakley's explanation that the letter was not his own sticks true in my mind.

I know it is not his, his handwriting is really too beautiful, that semi beautiful handwriting could be easily mistaken but still you can get what I'm trying to point out .

It might not be him for all I know, plus the awkwardness that is between us now, the awkwardness that is between us because of that letter and because of his breakup, I'm guessing that it will be more pronounced right now.

What I am trying to say is that Aron is still and my mind. He is still on my mind but yet they are two other people who take forefront in it.

There are two other people who I think of more than Aron, the two people are currently under this roof, they are currently under this roof and one of them is threatening to go away. This makes me sad.

It makes me considerably sad. I think the lack of sleep is doing something to my thoughts. I feel like I'll run mad.