Chapter 379

I'm still looking at Eras, I'm still looking at him and I'm trying to get an answer from him but he does not give me an answer.

He does not give me an answer at all, he simply stares into the distance, he looks again stealing glances at me and then he turns into the distance, almost like he's imagining something.

"Your former question, what was it?".

This is enough to make me roll my eyes.

Is this really how we're going to play sublte with each other, is this really how we're going to play sublte with each other until my aunt comes back and he has to go back to England.

"I asked what do you feel for me, i said what do you feel for me that makes you treat me the way you do?".

"Do I treat you in any special way?" He says and i nod my head.

"You treat me like I mean something to you. I'm asking you now, what do I mean to you?"

"Do you really want to hear the answer to that?" he says looking at me and I have to take time to consider it.

I have to take time to consider it.

I mean i had always known that Eras had feelings for me, I didn't really know that he liked me, let us put it that way.

I don't really know that he likes me and I also know that he likes me.

I know that he likes me from a practically obvious reason, the only thing that I do not understand and he's the reason I'm not understanding it.

How I am involved in all this, how is it that I am involved in this. I do not understand exactly how much power I hold in their hearts, I know that Clay thinks of me as something brave, well that much you can see from the way he practically looks at me but ever since then, he has always been a closed book to me.

Eras, he has been transparent with me enough but yet you can get what I'm saying???. Do I get what I'm saying???.

They both don't really allow their real thoughts to leak out that much.

"What exactly do you feel about me?".

I asked him this question again because I'm ready, i'm ready to hear it now. I'm ready to hear it and I'm not afraid to know what is in store for me.

His answer suprises me.

 He's saying he's not claiming to know everything, he's not claiming to have everything all figured out. He's telling me to give him a chance, he's telling me to give us a chance and if everything doesn't work out we will simply go back to being friends.

I cannot even put his words into words. I cannot put into words what he's saying because he's speaking from the depths of his heart.

He is speaking from the depths of his heart and my brain is not doing anything to register those words.

I get what he means though.

I get what he means totally well.