Chapter38:is that love?

"she's not your sister in-law."Alex said.

"Yet......stupid."Melissa said and I couldn't help but laugh awkwardly looking at Alex who was grinning foolishly." Now Kim let's go. My brother is an ass, I don't really know how you tolerate him." Melissa told me and I laughed looking at Alex who winked at me smiling and I winked back. Damn, this guy is driving me crazy. I can't believe I'm so jealous seeing him with any girl. I was hurt because of my stupidity thinking her sister is one of his women. I followed Melissa to I don't know where.

"Have you seen this bar?"she asked and I was surprised to see that this penthouse had a bar too. Why didn't Alex say there was any bar? I looked at where he was last standing to see he was not there anymore.

"I didn't want you to know because I don't want you getting drunk in the house whenever You're mad at me and because you are so stubborn when you are drunk."Alex said behind my right ear and I looked at him shocked and scared at the same time.

"You scared me Alex." I said holding my chest which almost jumped out of the chest.

"Alex, what are you doing here. I just want Kim and I, no boys allowed."Melissa told Alex.

"I can't have you get my girlfriend drunk in my house in a broad daylight. She can't drink so look for something better to do."Alex said holding my waist then kissed my nose and I blushed. He looked at his sister then said, "why don't you go freshen up Melissa. Kim and I have something to talk about." 

"No we don't."I said glaring at him and he chuckled.

"I told you, when you are angry you look aso cute baby."he told me then he perked my lips and he laughed when I glared at him more.

"Alex, you do know I'm here right?"Melissa asked and I pushed Alex away. Damn I forgot we have a plus one and Alex is acting so shameless.

"Yeah. But you are the unwanted guest here my dear sister." Alex told his sister and I pinched his waist and looked at him telling him to be nice but he just smiled.

"Fine I'll go but later, I'm gonna spend my time with her."she told him sternly and I laughed.

"Sure, now off you go." Alex pushed her to go.

After she was gone I looked at Alex."what is it that you want to talk to me about?"I asked him.

"Me?"he pointed at himself looking around. So dramatic.

"Is there anyone else?"I rolled my eyes and folded my hands below my breast looking at the stupid man who is Alex.

"Well I didn't say anything about wanting to talk to you. I said we have something to talk about."he said and I looked at him for some time. This guy is stupid.

"What's the difference?"I asked.

"There's a big difference and I....."

"God. Shut up!! I don't want to argue with you." I told him."tell me what we are talking about." I added.

"If you have something that you are not sure about, ask me and I will explain it to you. I don't want you getting mad at me and then hurting yourself just because there's a misunderstanding. If there's something that is off or you are not okay with it, ask me. Communication is very important."he said his face serious.

"When have you ever explained? You didn't tell me about Valentine and you are just playing hide and seek with me so that I would forget. I'm still mad by the way."I said looking away from him.

", You're talking as if I've not been explaining anything to you baby. It's just this Valentine shit and I'm not playing hide and seek, I've just not found the right time to tell you."he explained.

"I want to hear it now. I can't afford to have some crazy girls accusing me and humiliating me. I have to know what I'm dealing with. I want to hear all about your exs." I told him.

"Why do you want to know all my ex's?"he asked.

"Because.... I... Well... I want to know them so that they don't... What I'm saying is I want to know them because I want to know how many angry ex's I'll be dealing with. I need to be prepared."I said looking away.

"Weird but you are mine anyway." Alex said smiling.

"What's that supposed to mean?"I glared at him.

"Do you want to hear the story or not.?"he asked and I nodded. I'm desperate to know about his exs so of course I want to know.

"Well come take a sit with me because it's a long story." He said and he led me to the sitting room and made me sit on his lap. I started wiggling in search of a comfortable place but then Alex held my waist tightly and I looked at him."what is it Alex?"

"Can you stay still please."he said gritting his teeth and I wondered why he looks so angry.

"But I'm not comfortable."I said looking at him but instead of saying something he lifted me up and made me sit on his laps my legs on opposite sides.

"You good now?"he asked and I nodded."what do you want to know?"he asked again.

"How many ex's do you have?"I asked.

"One."he said smiling.

"I'm serious Alex."I told him because I saw like he's joking with me.

"So I'm I."he said still smiling.

"How many girls have you loved then?"I asked again.

"None?"he said but it's like he's not sure.

"Are you sure?"I asked him.

"No. I'm not."he said then he laughed. This guy is so unbelievable. How is he not sure if he loved his ex. I sighed and looked at him smiling because this answer is kinda of funny."why are you smiling?"he asked.

"Because you are funny honey. How can you live with a person and not know if you loved that person. I mean, isn't that funny."I said chuckling."does that mean you don't know how you feel about me?"I asked him laughing.

"I'm not sure about how I feel about you too."he said and I stopped laughing. I don't know how to feel about this answer because I didn't expect him to say such a thing" but before your mind run wild baby, all I know is that I don't want you to leave me. I think I like you."he added but that didn't make me feel better.

"You think?"I asked him raising a brow at him.

"I mean, I don't know what these feelings are. You make my heart beat so fast some times I fear it might jump out of my chest. I usually feel this longing in my heart to see you. I don't know what these feelings are but I really can't get you out of my head."Alex said and I looked at him astonished. I didn't say anything because I also feel the same way these days. I don't really know what to do but something I know is that I'm falling in love slowly. Then I remembered.

"So when you were with your ex, did you feel this way?"I asked him hoping he didn't.

"No. I didn't. These feelings are all new to me. We just used to fuck and I don't really know what I was doing in that relationship. I mean I used to call her all these sweet names and tell her I love her but I didn't really mean it. You asked if I have ever loved anyone but I don't really think so. If loving my sister counts then I've only loved my sisters and my parents."he said and I wondered.

"Sisters,, you have another sister?"I asked and he nodded but he didn't say more.

"I don't really want to talk about my sister right now. Can you please ask other questions not related to my sisters."he said and I saw pain flash in his eyes but it got lost as soon as it came. This guy knows how to change faces fast. I didn't ask more about his sisters so I just sighed.

"Okay then, what about your friends? Do you love them?" I asked and he thought for a few seconds.

"I just care about them. Is that love?" He asked grinning then he tightened his grip on my waist. I put both of hands on his chest.

"I don't really know."I replied."so you left your ex or what?"I asked.

"She left me. I was really mad about that because she is one person I counted on my life to be always there for me but she ended up leaving."he said and I laughed.