Chapter 24

Month's have already passed and my life is ruined. The wedding our family wants will continue and now I am walking down the aisle holding my flower. Franz stood in front and smiled looking at me. Dad was by my side and I was holding his arm, he was smiling at everyone but I was emotionless walking.

This is not the marriage I want. I want to marry the man I truly love, this is not the wedding I dream of. When I got close to Franz, he took my hand and smiled at me. The ceremony has started but no matter what I do I can't focus.

In the months that have passed, there have been many changes, Ash's belly is big and she is now home schooling. Luke is always on her side, He never left ash. As for Vaughn, I haven't heard from him, I miss him.

I already forgot how his voice sounds like.

"Franz Amiro, do you take Amber Nyx to be your wife, to live together in holy matrimony, to love her, to honor her, to comfort her, and to keep her in sickness and in health, forsaking all others, for as long as you both shall live?" The priest asked Franz.

He looked at me and smiled but his eyes said otherwise. "I do."

"Amber Nyx, do you take Franz Amiro to be your husband, to live together in holy matrimony..."

I looked into Franz's eyes and my tears flowed spontaneously. I'm going to marry a man I don't love.

"To love him, to honor him, to comfort him, and to keep him in sickness and in health..."

I want to be selfish now. I want to do what I want now, that will make me happy.

"Forsaking all others, for as long as you both shall live?"

His eyes say that whatever I decide he will support me. His eyes were sad but still managed to smile at me. I can't love you back, Franz. I'm so sorry.

I looked at my Daddy and his eyebrows crossed because I didn't answer the priest. I'm sorry if I disappoint you now, I just want to be free. I want to choose my own happiness, I'm sorry.

I looked at Franz, "I'm sorry..." I said and ran out.

I stopped when Luke threw his car key so I caught it and left the church, I'm sorry if I disappointed you again, Dad. I was about to open Luke's car but someone grabbed my arm and took me to the back of the church. When we stopped, I received a strong slap from DAD!

I stepped back because my cheek suddenly went numb from the force of his slap. I received another slap from him and at the same time my tears started to fall.

"WHAT THE HELL DID YOU JUST DO!?" He asked angrily but I didn't look at him.

I'm already expecting this.

"You embarrassed me in front of my business partners! What do you think the Amiro family will say, huh!? You're so stupid! You are a disgrace to this family!

"Dad, stop it!" Sister Amy came up and grabbed his arm, followed by Sister Amy's Mom.

I looked at him with full of emotion, they only care about their business! "Why? Did I want to be your child?" I asked.

"Nyx." Sister Amy.

"What!?"

"I'm your child, too. Why am I treated differently!? Why do you treat me so poorly? Do you think I wanted to be born this way? Why do you choose to hate me, Dad?" I asked him crying.

"Nyx!" Mom's sister-in-law, Aunt Amy's mother.

I took a deep breath before speaking again, "I am hoping that someday, you'll ask me if I'm okay. You'll give me the hug I've been wishing for so long, because honestly I'm so tired . I'm losing everything I have..." I wiped my tears and continued, " And I am scared that one day, I might also lose my self. I'm sorry if I'm not like the other kids who can make you proud, I'm sorry for being a disgrace to your family, I'm sorry if I'm not enough, I-Im sorry..."

I received another strong slap, "I took care of you and fed you and this is all you give!? I am your Father, Amber Nyx! How dare you disobey me!?"

You're my Father!? Like wtf? Did I grow up with a father?

I didn't answer and ran away and got into Luke's car. I drove out to Vaughn's condo, I want to talk to him. I... I need him.

When I arrived, I hurriedly got out of the car. I don't care what people who sees me, because I'm still wearing my wedding gown. When I arrived outside Vaughn's condo, I caught Clea who had just left the condo and locked it, when she faced me, she looked surprised and approached me.

"Nyx? Why do you look like that? What happened? Are you okay?" She asked one question after another but I didn't answer any of them but I held her by both arms which surprised her.

"W-why? Ba----"

"Where's Vaughn?" I asked.

She looked at me confused, "H-huh? You didn't know?"

You know what? What don't I know?

"W-what?" I asked, confused.

"He had already left for America, his dad and mom took him and he'll finish his school there..." She paused, "You... didn't know?"

I shook my head in response and just sat down because my tears started to flow.

Am I too late?

Just thinking of the thought makes me cry more. I was stunned for a second when I felt a warm hug coming from my back, "He will come back for you. Wait for him, I don't know what happened to you but cheer up. You will get the happiness you want someday and also I'm sorry for ruining your relationship with Vaughn." She whispered and left.

I went home to the house where Franz and I stayed for a month, I will also apologize to him. I caught up with Franz in the kitchen with wine in hand and he stood up when he saw me, he immediately returned the wine he was drinking to the container and approached me with a smile.

"Are you okay?" He asked with a smile.

"I'm sorry," I said as I started to cry again.

I felt a warm hug coming from him as I hugged him back, " Shushh, don't be. I'm not mad and I'll never be mad at you. That's your choice after all, I can't change that." He laughed softly. I hugged him tighter and cried on his shoulders. He became my friend, uhh nooo. He's already my best friend.

"I'm so sorry, Franz. I'm so sorry," I said again and again so he tried to face me and bent down to equalize our face.

He smiled, "You're my sun and I'm your Moon, but no matter how beautiful and perfect it is they can't be together... You don't have to say sorry because of what you did earlier,, , " he stopped and pinched my nose, " As long as I'm here, you'll always have someone who's proud of you in everything."

I'm sorry if I can't love you back. I'm sorry....

"We're still friends, right?" I asked, making sure.

He laughed and nodded, "Of course! I don't want to lose our friendship just because I love you. I'll just admire you from afar until I lose my feelings for you, I don't want to force you to love me back. I'll be your friend and that's enough... " He hugged me again, " Is this what they called paubaya? Haha, be happy Nyx. I'll support you as a friend."

Thank you.....