my childhood friend's secret (2)

Shino: as... a.... Mother?

After hearing how Kaneki thought of her she was bit in shock

Kaneki: yeah.

Shino: why do you see her as a mother?

Kaneki: well she was strict, very mean and i could say annoying.

"Stop don't tell her"

(Of course he thought as me as annoying back then)

Kaneki: but she's also very kind and sweet.

Shino was confused after hearing those words from him

Shino: really? How?

Kaneki: well when Sasachi doubted herself Shita-chan would be the first to encourage her not give up.

Shino: ( i never expected this he still remembers?)

Kaneki: and also when I was sick she and the girl i consider as my sister would always try and nurse me back to health honestly they probably used me as an opportunity to play nurse.

"Please stop my body!"

Shino: sounds like what a girl would do.

Kaneki: hehe, Yeah you're right but it was really nice she always cared for all 5 of us, we even made a promise i think 4 months ago saying no matter what we would always be friends.

"No don't!!!"

(Oh no Is this going here?)

Kaneki: but then 3 months ago we were separated.

(I knew it here it comes)

"Please stop I don't wanna make her guilty"

Kaneki: we were separated and i... wasn't able to see them again.

"I can't stop my body huh? In that case I'll just listen I have no choice right now.... i hate this"

(Wait what?)

Shino: separated?

Kaneki: Yeah, she... no those 4 left Sasachi went to a different school and those other 3 girls... i don't know where they've gone to.

(What is he talking about?)

Kaneki: you know after the first day of high school i desperately tried finding them I had a feeling they were still here at Shimotsuki.

(Desperately?)

Kaneki: then all i woke up here in the forest.

Shino: woke up?

Kaneki: yeah, turns out i rampaged here in this forest and my current sensei was the one who stopped me.

Shino: so did he or she explained why you rampaged?

Kaneki:... yes she told me I was screaming "WHY!? WHY! WHY DID YOU GUYS LEAVE ME!?"

"OH I GET IT ITS MY FAULT IM THE REASON YOU GUYS WERE ALWAYS BULLIED!, I WAS THE REASON! IF THATS THE CASE! ILL TRY TO FORGET YOU GUYS SO YOU CAN BE SAFE!".

(So you blamed yourself.)

Kaneki: yeah, so I tried to forget them but i only forgotten their faces and their actual names and i barely remember their voices.

Shino:...

Kaneki: why am i saying all of this?

Shino: what do you mean?

Kaneki suddenly got control again and was in a bit of confusion.

Kaneki: sigh~ honestly why do i talk about my past? It's pointless I'm surprised you even listened.

Shino: well like I said i consider you as a friend.

Kaneki: but why though? Why would you consider me your friend? Did i do anything good for you? Did i saved ya or something? I have no reason to be your friend.

Shino:... then why did you bother to talk to me?

Kaneki didn't know what to say but he said.

Kaneki: honestly I don't know! I don't understand myself I don't understand anything! But for some reason talking to you is like I'm talking to Shita-chan!

(This is my chance)

Shino: um Higanbana-ku-

Kaneki: let's stop talking right now.

Shino: Eh?

Kaneki: we aren't friends so there is no point in us talking. I'm going to check on the pot.

Shino: sure.(he does hate me by his attitude he looked like he hates me...)

Kaneki whispered.

Kaneki: seriously don't talk to me I don't want to cause problems for you again.

Shino: hmm? What did you say?

Kaneki: I-ITS NON YOUR BUSINESS!

Kaneki went to the pot where they were cooking Kaneki's version of curry.

And Shino was thinking.

(I heard what you said, very clearly... but what did you mean by you don't want to cause problems for me?)