Chapter 13

My head hurt as it keeps throbbing from this morning. I don't know if it was caused by my nightmare or something else. My whole body feels heavy. Under my sleeve is my throbbing bruised hands that were hit by the tutor before.

As I was troubled by my condition, I have another annoying thing that I need to solve in front of me. I look toward the person in front of me.

"Are you telling the truth?"

A question came from the young maid in front of me. She seems to be suspicious about my origin.

Although she was annoying, but it is funny to see how honest her facial expression was. From her expression, she did not have any malicious thoughts and somehow seems to be worried about me.

"If you don't believe it, you can follow me to my room. I need to quickly bring these five books to my room so I can finish reading all of them before the next class." I only can answer her like this so she won't be wasting my time.

I only want to be able to get back to my room as quickly as possible. I don't have time to explain to her. As I took two books with me, she suddenly widened her eyes. She seems to be surprised.

"F-fi-five! These thick books! You are kidding me, right?" She was really surprised to hear my explanation.

Ah…, finally I am able to see a normal reaction. Is she acting like this because she was new?

I saw her appearance. She looks like her age is similar to or close to brother Winslow's age.

Did she get accepted around the same time as Brother Winslow? Most servants in this mansion know about me and they keep bullying me whenever they met me. The only person who acted normally is the new workers who took their apprenticeships in this mansion. I know about the apprenticeship from Brother Winslow.

He told me that the nobles in the Empires need to let the orphans in their territory to be able to get apprenticeships. In Viscount Ruach territory, it happened every two years. But they need to carefully choose their apprenticeship applicant. They did it to prevent the possibility of a spy from other countries. I also know that there are quite a lot of orphans in the Eastern part of the Empire because most adventurers live in the Western part of the Empire.

he told me that in this world, there is a creature called a monster. In the Bible of the Temple of Light, the monster was a being created by the Goddess because of the never-ending war of the races that live in this world.

"Here, I will help you with the other three and follow you back to your room. I don't know if you are lying or not. But you must remember that I will keep my eyes on your behaviour." She said that while looking at me with a suspicious look in her eyes.

Well, it would have been a great help for me because I don't need to have another trip to bring the books to my room. I just want to get some rest before I started reading these books right now. Her offer is extremely helpful to me. As my head hurts badly.

"Thank you very much, Sister," I said to her politely.

The servants in this damn mansion like it if I act respectfully to them. At least they will lessen their bullying whenever I do it.

Both of us silently went to my room. I took two books with me while enduring the pain in my hands. I hide my bruise with the sleeve of my dress so she didn't see it.

When she get the other three books, I started to lead her to my room. As I opened and enter my room, her face turned horrible.

"Who are you? Are you really living in this prison-like room?" She asked me with a disbelief tone.

"Oops, I forgot to introduce myself. Nice to meet you, Sister. My name is Renneshia Ventus Ruach. And I am living in this prison-like room." I try to answer her with a smile.

"What?! Ruach?! Why do I never know about it?" She looks pretty confused about what she heard from me.

Looking at her reactions, I started to understand why Renneshia have never met with someone like her or Brother Winslow in the game. Someone who shows her kindness or loves her as if she was their family.

She was someone that the new servants had no information about. Then why was she never able to get close to the new servants?

When she started to show her talents, that's when they started to tell them about her, but Renneshia had turned into a cold person with too much trauma in her heart. Her tutor keeps telling her not to talk to other people. Actually, I have also been told similar things in class before while he scold and diss me or say about how filthy I am. Of course, I did not listen to him and only act as if I was listening because my head feel hurt and I just want him to quickly end the class.

Like how the other treats her in the Academy, the same goes with the new servants.

Maybe…

No! It's useless.

Even if Renneshia can get close to the new servants, she will still die when she meets the Saintess. And what will happen to her when I run away from this place? Won't it will end like what I saw in my nightmare?

I don't want anyone to die because of me. And I don't want to make a baseless hope without making sure of my current condition. What if my hope makes me harm the people that precious to me?

Right, even if Renneshia in the game was able to get close to the servants, there was also the possibility of them getting punished or maybe killed because of it and giving trauma to Renneshia. I think it will make her unable to get close to other even when she get to Academy.

Let's forget it and draw a line. It's better to leave this place before I got too attached.

"I just wanted to let you know, Sister Maid. It would be better if you didn't help me if you meet me again. If you keep helping me, you will get yourself into a trouble."

Just in case, I decided to warn her before she try to get closer to me.

Right, I can let them get into trouble because they involve themselves with me.

That's right! They might be appear in Renneshia from the game's unknown past. Maybe something happened to everyone that helped her like being banished, punished or maybe killed…

My headaches became worse.

"Wait! What do you mean when you said that?" She asked me with an extremely angry face.

I know it's just my imagination, but I think I seem to see a pair of horns in her head.

Why does she angry with me?

I just said it for her own good, right?

Why can't she understand my advice?

Why does she act like how brother Winslow acted this morning when I tell him to stay away from me?

I know that they might be worried about me.

But I'm alright with it because it was part of my plans to leave this damn place.

Don't make me attached to your kindness more than this.

I also don't want to feel guilty for causing you all of the trouble if they know that you are helping me.

Should I avoid the new servants from now on?

Please don't help me again.

Just let me alone.

I feel that my chest is hurting like someone squeezing my heart.

I-I just don't want to involve anyone in the problem that I have to face.

Why!

Why do they keep coming?

I'm scared that the Viscount family used them like what they do to Rennesia in the game.

And what if they got killed because of me?

If I became attached to you, you will turn into my weakness. It might cause me to be unable to leave this place. Right, it will prevent me or it might destroy my plans to leave this place.

So, please stop!

Don't come closer.

I just wanted to survive.

I just wanted to leave this place with my mom.

The more I try to stop them from helping me, the more complicated my feelings became.

I feel dizzy.

Argh…this headache is killing me and my heart hurts.

This pain makes me feel suffocated.

I don't know how to answer her question.

But…

"What do you mean?" She keeps asking me.

"I just don't want anyone to be punished for helping me…"

I am surprised by how my mouth suddenly answered her question.