CHAPTER 63

A woman's emotions will run to your several times of the day. Where you will feel very happy or very sad, due to very small or completely meaningless things. But as things stand now, I was not in a position to be swayed by things that have a little hope.

"Ah, leukemia! Mr. Hai, we don't even have enough money, and this child has a strange disease."

On the day she went home from being diagnosed with leukemia, her father got annoyed while talking to someone on the phone. Even in front of me. I suffered from unexplained headaches and dizziness. So I went to the infirmary because I had a headache, but the nurse told me to go to the hospital, that is when I knew i had a leukemia. My whole body hurts, but my mom and dad only frowned and sighed deeply, but my fear and anxiety were not relieved. Feeling like a sinner, she was quietly hospitalized, fought against the disease, and received my brother's bone marrow transplant. I have always been depressed and sad. To be honest, I don't know how many times I wished I was dead. I wasn't happy when I found out that my brother's bone marrow was a match for me.

"Oh, I don't want to! That's fucking painful!"

"But it's she is your sister. What should I do."

"Ah. Just tell her to die!"

"Hahh. . . . .Su-chan, if you do this, I'll buy you the laptop you wanted. . . . ."

". . . . . Really? It's Really?"

"Yes I'm promise."

Whenever i saw my brother the thought will come on my head. The voice of my brother telling me just go to die, even though I'm was next to him. After a bone marrow transplant traded for a gaming laptop and several treatments, i was exhausted but there was no one stay by my side. My parents were standing next to my older brother who had donated bone marrow, complimenting him on how wonderful he was and how good he worked, and I was lying alone looking at the white ceiling. I was so sad and depressed that I burst into tears, and at that moment I thought I was crying because i want to get my parents attention.

'It's all useless anyway, why are you crying?'

Even when I cried, they didn't look back at me. I was glad I wasn't scolded for being tired. After knowing that, even if I was depressed, I felt like the feeling itself was useless, so I was able to get out of it right away. The lesson of that past life is still useful today.

"This is not the time to be depressed. I don't know if Killian will give me his heart or not, and it's dangerous to trust him.'

In the meantime, I've been working hard to buy the favor of the extras, and thanks to that, the number of servants who pretend to know me has increased, but I needed to prepare more practical things.

'Done! I need to save more money!'

There were still 9 million sena in my safe at the Central Bank of Malen. It was not a small amount of money by commoner standards in this world, but it was far from enough to prepare for an unknown future. I jumped up and started to pull out the jewels that I could dispose of.

'I sold everything I took off my dress, and the accessories I brought when I got married. . . . .Well, let's sell everything that's not my taste.'

I searched all the drawers and accessory cases to select what to sell, but there were not as many jewelry to sell as I thought. The large gems that decorated the dress were colored minerals that looked like rubies or sapphires, which were jewelry but could not be paid much.

'Let's sell the dress that i don't wear!'

The dresses of the nobles were also expensive. I was wondering who would buy the dress I used to wear, but there were people who didn't wear the dress once or twice, so the used dress market seemed to be active. I'm afraid it'll be weird if I mend the dresses I brought when I got married. I separately selected the gorgeous and lewd dresses I had left. Even though there were only three i think worth to sell.

"Anna! Can you find me a dress buyer?"

"Yes, i got it."

It was relief that Anna didn't ask any questions.

There was no need to rush into ridiculous reason in hurry. Anna, an example of competent maid, brought a man in late that afternoon. He seemed to be the owner of a pretty popular clothing store on Le Belle Marie Street. After a brief greeting, i held out the dress i had taken out earlier in front of him.

"I'd like to sell these three sets."

"Oh, it's in very good shape. How many times have you worn it?"

"I've probably worn this once, and I've never worn the other two."

"Yes? Are you selling your new dress as a second-hand? Let's wear it at least once and sell it. Even if it's new, it's definitely a second-hand price when I buy it, isn't it too wasted?"

He seemed like a conscientious person for a merchant.

"What a waste. it's a waste, but. . . . .i don't want to wear a dress that might offend the dignity of the Duke of Ludwig."

"How could this hurt the duke dignity. I'm sure these dresses will suit you very well. This level of exposure is nothing these days."

I know. It's a gorgeous dress if I wear it. Isn't it a design that chosen for Edith to make her stand out in Riegelhoff family. It was a bit of a problem if i tried to stand out here.

"Thank you for telling me that, but I probably won't wear it in the future. So I'm going to sell it before this fashion fad away."

"If you say so, I got it. Then i'll buy it, so this dress is 300,000 sena, this is. . . . .I'll give you 400,000 sena, and this one is 180,000 sena."

The dresses that would have been close to 1 million sena at the time of production are dropped less than half the price.

"Can't you give me a little more? Even though it's used, these are still like a new. . . . ."

"Actually, I would like to do that too, but there are only few people who want to wear a dress with such an unconventional design, so it is difficult to sell it. . . . ."

After listening to it, I understood what the merchant said. There aren't many people who can wear this kind of design. Unfortunately, I accepted his offer and disposed of the dress. The next day, i took Anna to a jeweler on Darsus Street. This time, I went straight to "Amabile" without comparing a few places. I thought the owner would pay me better because i already made a deal with him before. But when the jeweler looked closely at the jewels I had taken, I was nervous inside.

"Well, I'll give you 10,000 sena for each diamond bead. Topaz is 30,000 sena, Tour Mullin is 50,000 sena, Garnet is 30,000 sena. . . . ."

He calmly sorted the jewels with a strict face and calculated by bouncing the abacus. The price of semi-precious stones has dropped a lot even if the jewelry stones are large. The diamond beads I left behind just in case got a good price. I'm a little disappointed, but the voice of the jeweler's owner, who was checking the accessories I took, became a little brighter.

"That's a good emerald. Hmm. . . . At this rate, I think we can buy it for 3 million sena."

The necklace mixed with emeralds and diamonds was paid 3 million sena, the ruby earrings that to splendid and hurt my eyes paid with 1.5 million sena, and the bracelet with diamonds and semi-precious stones was 1.8 million sena.

"Then, in total. . . . . It's must be 691 million sena."

He turned the calculated statement to me and showed it to me. I tried to bargain a little more, but the jeweler repeated that it was more difficult than this.

"I got it. The. Please dispose of it that way."

"Thank you for coming with a good stuff every time."

The store owner also put in the jewels with a satisfied expression and handed me the cash right away. The total amount of money i earned from selling my dresses and jewelry was 779 million sena.

'Even if i add all the the money in the safe, it's only 1,679 million sena. . . . It's still not enough.'

It was far from enough to escape and live, and it was not enough money to bribe people around. It was hard to know if I could escape from the flow of the story or not, but I needed a lot more money to try anything.

'Even if she's the daughter-in-law of a powerful man, a woman can't take a lot of money.'

Of course, I was grateful that I wasn't possessed by a poor commoner, but I felt a little bitter because I didn't have enough money than I expected. But when I got home and was about to rest, Killian came. When i saw the fine wrinkles between his eyebrows, it felt like he was here to nag at me.

"Killian. I'm a bit tired now. . . . ."

"What are you up to?"

"What?"

"I heard you sold some of your jewelry and dresses."

"Ah. . . . ."

It fast. I even told Anna's to shut her mouth, and called people in secretly. But within a day, it's got into Killian's ears. Well, they might have put a watcher around me.

"I just disposed some of the useless things."

"Haven't you thought about how it would look to others if you sold your things, even if it's just a useless thing?"

Oh, is it going to be like this again? Killian seemed to think I shaved Ludwig's family face. But I can't help it.

"I'm sorry. I didn't think that far, i don't have any cash to spend, so I'm just selling useless stuff. . . . "

"You don't have any cash?"

"Yes."

Killian had a puzzled look on his face.

"Don't you receive money every month?"

"Yes? I've never heard something like that."

"No, obviously when we get married. . . . .ah!"

Killian, who was trying to explain something, suddenly put his hand on his forehead.

"Oh no. . . . I'm sorry about that. I supposed to be the one who's set your money, but I guess i keep forgetting that."

"Huh?"

Are you saying you didn't give me the money you were supposed to give me? Oh my gosh, my blood pressure is going up! Killian, you idiot! There's something else to forget! I thought he was a smart guy. . . . .!

"I'm so sorry. I'll give you all once the things I haven't given you so far."

. . . . . As expected, Killian. You became a person now. I quickly regained my peace of mind.