"No- no we can't"
-Saturday, 7.40am
*One more day before school
-Opens groupchat-
Grace- good morning everyonee
Ryan-morning guyss
Steph- rise nd shinee
Josh - how was eveyrones sleep
Steph- Well, josh is right here guys
Ryan- Bea is still in bed
Steph- aww
Grace- Theo isn't awake yet
Bea- guys I'm awake now
Theo- yh same
Grace- anyways someone is throwing a back to skl party
Ryan- yh it's my friends party
Josh- We'll be there
Bea- I will
Steph - What time?
Ryan - Starts at 7, b lets get there for 8
Josh - everyone can meet at mine
-Closes chat-
Bea's POV
"Good morning beautiful"
"Good morning Ryan," I hug him "You excited for tonight?"
"Yeah, kind of. I'm so tiredd"
"Whyy?"
"Bea, you kept me up ALL night."
"You weren't complain-"
"Yeah, I know," He stands up "But I've got to go soon."
He's got to go ?!
The love of my life has got to go? He can't stay, be happy and in love with me?
"It's my mates party, I'm going to his to help him set up. But I'll meet you there?"
"Noo, babe. I can't be by myself all day."
"Then come with me, I'll drop you off at Josh's"
Ugh. Not him.
"No, it's fine. I'll invite the girls over"
"To my own house?"
"Yeah Ryan, to your house."
He kisses me then walks downstairs,
"LOVE YOU."
*Opens "The girlies" Chat*
Bea- Hey guys
Steph- hey
Grace- hey, what's up?
Bea- do u wanna guys wanna come over to mine to get ready?
Bea- I'm abt to leave Ryan's now
Steph- yh sure
Grace- yh I can leave w Steph
Well, I guess it's time to go home.
*Rings doorbell
"Well, hello darling,"
Here we go.
"You haven't returned any of my calls," I show her the ring
"Oh my gosh, Ryan did well."
"I knoww"
"Well , I'm so happy for you darling. But when are you coming home?"
"I don't know yet, I mean school is next-"
"Bea, you will be home by next week-"
"But mum, I just want to be with Ryan."
"Unless, you're living with him, you can't keep going back and forth. I know your father and I have been abroad for the past week, but now it's time for us all to settle togther as a family."
"Yeah sure,"
"Any plans for today hun?"
"Well, Steph and Grace are coming over and I'm going out tonight"
"Ooo, well so am I."
"You're going out?"
"Oh darling, your father is flying me out to Lake Como this afternoon."
"Mum! You just said, I have to stay at home."
"You do."
Ugh. Sometimes my mother is just-
"And don't even think about bringing Ryan here while we're gone. His parents may accept it over there,"
His parents don't know. His parents gave him his own apartment. He is so luck-
"Are you even listening?"
"Yes, I am."
---2.30pm
My mum has just left, and the girls are coming over!
*doorbell rings
"Hey girls"
Grace and Steph walk in
"Bea, your house is so nice!" Steph exclaims.
I mean- my mum was an interior designer. So when people walk into our house and see
This.
"It feels bigger every time I come over"
"Grace, stop"
"Guys, let's go upstairs"
Grace jumps on the bed, Steph sits on the bean bag
"So... you guys excited for tonight?"
Steph shakes her head no.
"Steph, what's wrong."
"Everything was going well with Josh, but ever since we texted the group chat he started acting weird."
"And he got mad when I sent that pic of my hands in his hair, he said we should keep our status private"
What? What the fuck is going on with Josh
"That is so bad, have you talked to him?"
"Yeah, and Steph you know I can talk to him for you. I used to have these problems with Ryan"
"No, it's fine," She begins to cry, "It's just that- I think I love him."
"Aww Steph, that's fine. He loves you too."
"And so do we," Grace and I give her a big hug.
--5.30pm
"Guys, I'm so hungry I'm going to order some food."
-Opens Groupchat-
Josh - hey guys
Ryan- hey
Theo- r u guys ready for 2nite
Grace - yhh
Steph- we j ordered food
Theo - let's see
Theo- bro I'm so hungry
Ryan- I'm omw
Josh- do u have food?
Bea- aww babe that's so cute
Ryan - ikr
Bea- imu
Ryan - imu2
Bea-imum
Josh - guys can u do this couple bs on another chat
Steph -Josh don't be a dickhead
Josh - I'm not
Steph - u keep doing this
Josh - doing what?
Steph - being insensitive and rude
Josh- then leave me
Steph - what?
Josh - get off my back, don't be so clingy
Steph - fine I will
"Steph, are you sure this is what you want?"
"Listen, Bea, I love Josh. And right now, he isn't acting like the man that I fell in love with. So, yeah if this means we have a short break, that's fine. As long as he comes back"
"Aww, that is so sweet. Yeah, I understand you."
"Steph, I think you should look really hot tonight and make him jealous."
"Yeah, I agree with Grace. Actually, let's all do that."
"Thanks guys! We are going to be the hottest girls there.
As soon as we got ready, we made our way downstairs to the basement.
My basement, was the best for photos. And this was the perfect time to utilise it.
-Opens groupchat-
Theo- r u guys coming over soon?
Grace- yh j finished getting ready
Ryan- Ooo let's see
*sends pic
Theo - u look good (respectfully)
Grace - hahah, ur cute
Theo - what r u wearing cutie
*sends pic
Theo - u look amazing
Steph - yh she does
Ryan- wheres my girl
Bea- I'm here
Ryan - what r u wearing
*sends pic
Ryan - woah u look gd
Josh - she looks beautiful (respectfully)
Ryan - ur wearing the bracelet I got u ages ago
Bea- ikk, shld I keep it on or take it off
Josh - take it off
Ryan - keep it on
Steph - Listen to Ryan.
Bea - can someone open the door, we're here
"Hey, babe" Ryan kisses me on the neck, "I missed you."
"I missed you more!" I jump into his arms, and he takes me out to the car.
"Guys, Bea and I will meet you at the party."
"Wait, can Grace and I come?"
"Yeah sure,"
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Josh's POV
*door slams
"Steph, you look beautiful tonight"
"Yeah I know, didn't say that on that groupchat, did you?"
Oh, my gosh
"It's not that dee-"
"It's not that deep? Josh," She starts fucking crying, "What's going on with you - with us?"
"I- I don't know."
"You SHOULD know."
"I DON'T KNOW."
"Please, stop yelling. Josh-"
"DON'T. I - I" I walk over towards the kitchen, bring a glass out, and fill it to the rim with vodka.
"Josh, don't drink that." I chug it all back in one go.
"Josh, please," I pour another glass, "Please, babe"
I drink it all in one go.
"Josh, you and I are meant to b-"
"No, we aren't Steph. You know we aren't, we were just fuck buddies looking for converstation to go with it. You know tha-"
"You're drunk, you're lying," She's bawling now, on the floor. Her beautiful dress dripped with tears, her mascara smudged.
"NO, I'M NOT. GO UPSTAIRS, AND FIX YOURSELF."
She runs upstairs, and I sit down.
My head in my hands, what have I done. I need to drink more to get my mind off of everything. I pour myself another glass, finish it and walk outside.
I light a cigarette, inhaling the smoke and feeling the warmth travel through my body. I can't play games with Stephanie anymore, I am in love with Bea.
But I know- I should stick with Steph for my own good. Just for now
"I'm ready, Josh."
We jump in the car, I turn to her,
"I'm sorry Steph," my words now slurring "I love you, you know that. I just get mad sometimes, I don't know why."
"I know, but I will always be here for you."
Sooner or later, we arrive. Steph runs off to find Grace, I run off too find Bea.
"Hahaha, and then I told him 'what the fuck are you doing?', but he was actually giving me the promise ring"
I catch Bea's voice as people surround her and...Ryan.
"Hey guys,"
"Oh, hey bro. How's it going. You guys left a bit late."
"Yeahh, but it's fine now."
"Bea, can we talk?"
"Yeah sure,"
Ryan kisses her, and she begins to walk with me.
"Let's go upstairs." I take her to one of the bedrooms upstairs and she sits on the bed.
"Josh, what's wrong."
"I have fucked everything up."
"What- what do you mean?"
"I got mad at Stephanie and shouted at he-"
"Why, why the hell would you do that?"
"Because of you,"
"Josh, how much have you drunk?" She makes a concerned face
"Enough."
"Bea, you make me do crazy things. I want you, I need you,"
"No, no this can't be happening."
"I'm supposed to be happy with Ryan and you should happy with Steph."
I lean closer,
"Josh, this can't happen."
Her lips trail mine
"Josh - I"
I kissed her, it was a passionate kiss. A kiss filled with list and love, as I pulled her on top of me her hands ran through my hair.
Her lips trailed acorss my neck, my hands exploring her thighs and-
"No-no we can't"
"Bea."
She stood up.
"I can't do this, I love Ryan."
"No you don't, you love me. We have more passion that you two will ever have."
"That's fine, because passion isn't everlasting, love is. And I have experienced the deepest connection with Ryan. I am so grateful for him, but you and I will never be."