When Anurak was young, his father became a toyboy for a gang leader and even abandoned his family for another woman. 

His mother died when he was 10. But before her death, she planted some notions in his mind. 
Notions that gay men are husband snatchers and evil.
Notions that a true man can only depend on himself.
Notions that a man can only love one woman. 
These notions turned Anurak into an overly sensitive young boy, who would rather suffer in silence than ask for help. 

Because he didn't want to disappoint his late mother, he tried his best to adhere to her principles. 

Everything was fine until he entered the university. 
First, gaymen lurked everywhere he turned to and the sight of them made it very hard for him to keep ignoring his true feelings. 

Then his girlfriend broke up with him and the only man who made him tempted enough to break his principles decided to force things...

Anurak, Let Me Love You

This is why I have to return every penny he has spent on me. I have to find a way to return it. Otherwise, I will be under his thumb forever! Anurak mused. He just wants to control everything I do. Make me his boy, just like he did to my brother. 


Now he couldn't wait for the winter shows to come. The allowances he would be getting monthly from BELLEZA were cool, but it won't cover much. If he could get his hands on the winter show allowances, he would be able to offset almost half of his debt. 


I need to talk to P'Eshin. It's either he takes the money and gives it to P'Sud or keeps it. I am paying them back and extricating myself from P'Sud's control. Anurak snared inwardly. 


He glared at Sud for the last time, then returned to his room. 


“She will be here by evening. Be nice.” Sud sniggered at him before he could close the bedroom door. 


As for New, he was as silent as a mute. Saying nothing and pretending that he didn't hear anything. 


Eating together