11. I am Getting Distracted

Things are going well in my life right now. And this scares me. I have a feeling that I am getting sidetracked with other things and am forgetting my original goal.

I am not what you would call bright. But, neither am I a dark student. So, I Know. Something is not right.

I am not focusing on the job in need to do right now.

I am spending most of my time on the social media, even though I don't talk with almost anyone in it. It means, I am feeding myself with useless feeds from the Chrome(webtoon websites), Games(alto's adventure, alone), Quora(mostly this one rn),Discord and Chatgpt.

I don't see any important point in using almost all of these guys. I mean, I have many other apps on me, but am mostly sticking with these guys. This is bad. I will ditch you guys soon.

I want a healthy lifestyle with all of you guys balanced. I am going to study. I want to study. Atleast, till those exams are dead.

I don't wanna lose the ten hours of my day on the black box either. Even the AI seemed like it was trying to rule over me. It sucked.

Ofc, Things are wrong. Damn!! Things are this wrong? I didn't realize it untill I typed it down.

And, here I was thinking that things were going smoothly these days. I wish to stop being myself.

That's one of the main reason I have created this Name for myself.

Even though the Real me is ignorant towards everything in his life. I want Sokomon to be someone great. And I can't reach greatness, if I am being like this.

The only things I have noticed in me improving over these three months is that,

MY TYPING SPEED HAS INCREASED TO A NICE LEVEL.

I DON'T CRAVE FOR ATTENTION ANYMORE.

I SURE NEED TO DESCIPLE MYSELF.

I am writing this chapter because, I would like to start a new life....again!

I know, I have said something like that in the past as well...and am saying something like this in the present as well...and I might say something like this in the future as well.

After typing anything I want, My mind feels like it's on sleep mode. It feels nice to not mind of other things in this world and just keep saying things to other people without waiting for them to reply to your thoughts.

Oh! I think, I can try to become like that as well.

Like, a good listener.

When, I hear someone talking about something, I'll do my best to not interrupt them.

Well, I had written, around three different drafts before writing this. I couldn't publish them because I realized that they had some of my pessimism in them.

I am stopping it here for now...

as I'm entering my dark mode for some reason...

I'll do all the unloading of my dark matter on a new chapter.

See Yaa...