Cosmictear

In this Apocalypse, things that were once hidden are shown in a way that would make your blood boil in horror, but also in hilarity at the circumstances they unfold in and the way the MC, Travis experiences things. Follow along with this book for a well thought out Apocalypse/ all-conquering man who becomes a god, who then claws to the very height of the Universe, and then to the height of every Universe in the Multiverse of all connected strings.
In a world where Zombies, beasts, and Awakeners dominate, power is absolute. There is no law save for who is the strongest.
Follow Travis on his journey to Survive and Thrive in a world that is keen on dragging his soul to hell.
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Informational: The novel is mainly action based and has occasional R18 scenes. 
The main character is focused on becoming strong, but he has family and friends that he wants to protect as well.
The main character has a dark past and has to grapple with it throughout the story. The mana and Magic of the world has a lot to do with emotions.

Surviving An Apocalypse

As I fell towards the sea, I realized suddenly, it was the same blue sea where I had heard the voices of gods.

As I slammed into the sea once again, I was merely a giant glob of Mana. For a second, I thought I was about to merge into the sea and lose my sense of being, but that was not the case.

As I hit the sea, The liquid Mana separated away from me and let me fall to the very bottom of the Sea. At the bottom of the sea, there were portals… Millions of them.

Every single portal glowed except for the one which I was heading towards, that one was white.

After entering through the portal, I appeared in a space that was completely empty. Everything was empty. The only light was sourced from the Mana of my soul, and that of the glowing white portal, but the light reached nothing. There was only endless darkness.

Deity Born of Earth