Cosmictear

In this Apocalypse, things that were once hidden are shown in a way that would make your blood boil in horror, but also in hilarity at the circumstances they unfold in and the way the MC, Travis experiences things. Follow along with this book for a well thought out Apocalypse/ all-conquering man who becomes a god, who then claws to the very height of the Universe, and then to the height of every Universe in the Multiverse of all connected strings.
In a world where Zombies, beasts, and Awakeners dominate, power is absolute. There is no law save for who is the strongest.
Follow Travis on his journey to Survive and Thrive in a world that is keen on dragging his soul to hell.
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Informational: The novel is mainly action based and has occasional R18 scenes. 
The main character is focused on becoming strong, but he has family and friends that he wants to protect as well.
The main character has a dark past and has to grapple with it throughout the story. The mana and Magic of the world has a lot to do with emotions.

Surviving An Apocalypse

In the eternal night, I drifted, being endlessly flayed and split by the vicious currents of the blackhole. It was an extremely strange feeling. The further I traveled into the blackhole, the slower the speed I seemed to be traveling at.

In the darkness, I had no way of telling time. Had it been years? Decades? Millenia? I didn't know, but I was starting to become insane. My growth had stagnated. I had run through the experiences of my life several million times.

I had pondered through and had conquered every single conundrum I had ever encountered. There was nothing left for me to think about.

In the eternal darkness my mind grew numb. My thoughts halted. My existence began to disappear, not because I had died, but because there was nothing at all to experience.

That was when it happened. It was a feeling that I had not felt for a very very long time, it was my body.

What Is the Meaning of Life?