Do You Miss Them?

Writer's POV:

"Do you miss them?" Razar asked

"Who?"

"Your foster parents"

"I have no idea."

"And why is that?"

"I lived more than half of my life as Mirabeth the daughter of a Wood Merchant, everything seemed normal until My mother conceived and everything changed from then on. My dad became grumpy and distant and my mom became sad and depressed, she was always apologizing to me unnecessarily. Little did I know that I was about to be sold out, when I found out that I was to be sold by my parents either as a slave or sex worker to some delinquents in order to raise money for the unborn child's needs, I ran. I was saved by Keyleth and I only followed her because she promised me a home and a family that I so desired. Coming into the Witchers Cavern, I was seen as a threat to the position of Queen Creek by my Sisters, I was seen as another sister to my brothers, same as my Father he just saw me as another daughter. It was only my Mother Queen Veronia that welcomed me with open arms. I truly thought that she was happy to see me but when my lack of Manta was disclosed she abandoned me, since I wasn't going to bring glory to her or stop the fingers pointed at her for being a commoner, she tossed me aside. Then Ceres came along, he told me that it would be of no use if I studied Thordak as I possessed no Manta to Control the Spirits, he advised that I become a doctor, he taught me special herbs and several medicines. When I turned 17, Queen Trinah forced me to stop learning herbs as she believed that I, a Princess, shouldn't stoop so low to treat people.

Because I was weak, I was bullied and Maltreated by my Siblings but Keyleth and Ceres always stood by me.

Even though I was aware of Keyleth's sly and cunning nature, even though I knew that she only found me to curry favor from My Father, I still thought that at least for the sake of the bond we shared as Twins, she had an atom of love for me.

I never saw her relationship with Ceres coming, I never thought that he would wound me in such a way, regardless of the numerous times he rejected me, according to him we came from two different worlds and he couldn't possibly have something to do with someone of my Caliber, he once claimed that I was too young for him, funny how he ended up with someone that I am just a few minutes older than."

"Love, huh, I have no idea what that emotion feels like as I have never truly experienced it before, what I know is Revenge, if you feel as wounded as you claim you do then I suggest you hurt him." Razar suggested, and received a glare from Herdis in return.

"He was the reason I married you, he told me to go along with the marriage, he said he was going to come along with reinforcements to save me along the way from Brussels to Canterbury, but he never showed up.

He actually made a deal with my Father and Queen Trinah, he would convince me to wed you in place of Keyleth's hand. Guess King Negah couldn't stand to lose any of his valuable daughters that's why he settled for less.

You should divorce me while you can, after all I am just your Queen but I am not your Luna." Herdis continued.

"Just let it out."

"Let what out?" Herdis asked, confused.

"Your tears, stop holding it back you have tried, Herdisan."

And just like all the walls Herdis built crumbled down, she couldn't remember when she last cried but right now here on Razar's chest she cried like never before.

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Herdis woke up in a strange room.

'I can't believe I cried myself to sleep in Razar's arms. I feel so embarrassed how in Heaven's name will I face him again.'

Herdy was still lost in thoughts when the door of the room was pushed open, she hid under the duvet immediately, she could tell from the footsteps that it was Razar and she needed to do all she could to avoid him, so hiding under the blankets was the best option.

"Tonight is quite hot."

Was all she heard him say then he went into the bathroom. After ten minutes the doors of the bathroom were pushed open, and he walked into the room. She had the urge to peek over the duvet and look at him but she had to fight it, she needed to protect her Dignity as a woman.

She felt the bed deepen, signifying that he had climbed into the bed. Herdis took a deep breath because she knew what was coming. She waited and waited but nothing happened,

'He never sleeps without a duvet, so why hasn't he dragged some for himself, or could this be due to the heat.'

She gulped when she imagined him laying on the bed shirtless.

'What's wrong with you, Herdisan, how can you have such immortal thoughts.'

Herdis's lack of self control got the better of her, she found herself peeking over the duvet. And he actually wore a shirt, a long sleeved as usual, with his usual black gloves.

'I thought he complained about the heat, yet he didn't even wear a light lace, he still wore thick linen.I have known him for months and if there is one thing he never forgets to do, it's putting on a glove, I have never seen his palms or his bare arms. Not that I want to see it, I just find his fashion sense weird, that's all. There's nothing else exactly.

Wait, who am I explaining myself to, I don't need to explain myself if I am truly innocent, Right? Ugh, who the hell am I asking.'

"Are you unable to breathe through your nose?." His cold voice rang out, breaking the existing silence.