Start of relationship with Suravi

It was the season of Dashain. The campus management had organised welcome program in the occasion of Dashain. There was food festival and dance party. Early in the morning, I woke up with full of energies. I entered the bathroom and had a shower. Then as usual I worshipped for a while. Mamma had prepared breakfast for me. She gave me a call from the kitchen. I hurried towards kitchen.

Mamma said to me,"Today is Saturday and where are you preparing to go?" "Mamma there is welcome program in our college for new students. There will be foods and party so I am going to college." "Okay, have some milk and bread. Then you may go. And one more thing, return home in time." "Okay, mamma, I will catch you at evening." I finished my breakfast and moved towards college.

I reached in front of her hostel and dialed her number. She received the call. "Hello." she said. "I am outside your hostel. How long will it take you to reach here?" I said. "Not more than 10 minutes." She said. "Okay, I am waiting." I said. "Okay." she said and disconnected the call. After about fifteen minutes, she arrived outside. She gave a pleasant smile and gave me a tight hug. Then we headed towards the college.

As we reached college, we separated ourselves for a while. She engaged herself with her female friends and I got engaged with my male friends. There were famous singers invited by the college administration. Varities of food items were arranged. A couple of hours were elapsed in formal presentation regarding the exchange of best wishes on the occasion of Dashain.

Thenafter, the musical dance party was started. I didn't know to dance well. But I found every other students were dancing haphazardly. And I couldn't stop my legs from the musical vibes. Hence, I danced for the first time. As I was dancing Suravi was looking towards me with a smile on her face. I moved towards her and pulled her hands. She hesitated to dance but I insisted. As I insisted, she danced for a while along with me. I enjoyed a lot that day as I danced with Suravi.

After the dance party was over we enjoyed the feast. Thenafter, I went to leave her up to her hostel as usual. We reached near her hostel. We stood for a while outside the gate of her hostel. It took us half an hour to say 'bye' to each others. It was being late. Hence, breaking the romantic silence I said,"Bye see you." I waved my right hand and walked straight towards Koteswor without looking back. Perhaps, I felt looking back and turning towards her might make me stop for more time.

I returned home. I was feeling tired so I entered my room. I took rest for a while and entered the kitchen. I had my dinner and slept.

I woke up early in the morning. I hold the jug kept on the table and drank water from it. Frogy was also sleeping on the table. I took it in my hand. As soon as I took it in my hand, life took a new twist. There was a text message from Suravi. I went through it.

"I don't know why, but Ratis, yesterday, I couldn't sleep well. I don't know what it is, but I feel magical whenever I remain with you. And in your absence, I feel a huge pain inside. I don't know how to say but I can't remain without saying. Today, we are together but I fear thinking what will happen tomorrow. When I think this, I feel a huge pain inside my heart. I wish to be forever with you, for my entire life. But..."

What was this 'but' I couldn't get through, hence I sent her a reply of her text. 'What are you trying to say? Please say it clearly.' She sent next message. 'I will say in college.'

I had left home for the college after having breakfast. My mind was totally occupied from the morning. 'Actually, what was the matter? What was she trying to say? Sending text early in the morning, she is saying something complicated. Together today, what will happen tomorrow, wish to live together forever, again but…'. Making my mind whatever the matter was, I would ask her in college; I reached at the gate of her hostel.

She was standing nearby the gate outside her hostel. She waved her right hand with a smile on her face as she noticed me. I also did the same and we moved towards college together. There was a small park near her college. She took me to that park. There was no one inside the park. We sat on the bench at the east corner.

We often used to spend our time over there. We were not there just to spend our time that day. We were in search of a right place to talk. At once, I asked her,"What happened Suravi? What do you want to say? Say it clearly."How to say and what to say Ratis, I am totally confused." She said. She was looking quite serious at the moment. "Do not hesitate, what is the matter speak easily." I said.

As I motivated her she started to explain regarding the matter. At first she asked me a question,"Ratis, will our relationship continue forever? Or will it end after our session at Linclon?" "Why are you asking such question? We are friends and this relation will last forever." I said instantly without analyzing her question. "But Ratis, I want your presence forever in my life. But I think it is not possible." She said and started looking towards the sky.

Our mind is blind. I held her hands with my hands gently and said,"Ok if you want, I will be with you in your life forever." She still had some doubt. She said," But Ratis..." "Why are you doubting? Don't you trust me?" I asked her. She said,"I trust you more than myself." "Then what is the matter?" I asked. She said,"Our caste. I am from so called low caste and you are from Brahmin community." Suravi seemed a bit serious and nervous.

I was an educated person. Pa was also follower of Communism. I thought he would accept our relationship. Hence I said to Suravi,"I love you. You also love me. Then there is not any worries regarding our caste. I am hardworking. You too study hard. Our future is bright. Lets walk together." She said,"I had wished this reply from your side Ratis. You kept my trust." Suravi gave me a tight hug. Perhaps, it was her reflex action. I rubbed her back with my hands and said,"Love you too."

Thenafter, it was much more easier for us to stay together, eat together, study together, flirt with each other, walk and roam together.