Chapter 5

IT was finally the day of the twins birthday party and I got my best outfit on or what I thought was my best.

   I wore a black bootleg tights that showed my bellybutton and a mesh black and white crop top. I don't know how it looked or if I looked good in it but I felt hot though even though my stomach was looking a bit chubby.

   BEFORE we went to my grandmother's place where the party was being held, we waited till 3pm for when the party actually starts.

   I took a few tiktoks obviously because come on I deserve to because I felt hot in this outfit and my confidence was everything right now. Ace was partially the main reason why I felt like this. Being with him made me feel cute. I felt less ugly about myself

   When I got at my grandmother's places there was barely any people there yet and It still seem to be a tad bit early. I ended up helping my cousin set up the place well I tried helping but I was useless.

   Some of my family members started coming while the place was being set up and the also tried helping

   Soon after that more and more people starting showing up but no sign of him. I then decided to video call him.

No answer.

By the second ring he picks tells me his busy getting done now and waiting for the others. We started on the call for awhile before he ended it.

I could barely hold my excitement in and I didn't even know how I am going to even make with my parents and other adults being around us because no one knew we were dating besides my cousin.

How am I supposed to be with him for the night and also make it look like nothing is going on between us when all I wanna do is hold him, grab him by face and make out with him. I swear I'm on a high when we kiss because my eye would feel all low like it shutting close and I would have this rush of energy coursing through my body but at the same time feel tired and clumsy just buy kissing him.

   A noise of a car Infront bring me back to reality lately I've been daydreaming alot.

   I went to the gate to check who it was even though I knew already by the sound of the car, catching a few glimpses of him getting out my nerves started to go on overdrive and it felt as if butterflies started forming In my stomach.

   How am I still this shy for him when we've been constantly speaking over the phone for sometime now. It not like it's my first time meeting him.

   I don't think I'll ever stop getting shy at him.

Ace came in and then greeted everyone around him. I sat there staring and waiting and waiting until it was my turn to be greeted by him. I couldn't wait any longer, the anticipation was killing me.

He finally looked at me, I looked back with a huge smile on my face and stood up then hugged him. It felt so good hugging him I never want to stop feeling what I'm feeling now. I didn't want to let go but the longer we hugged the more obvious it would have been for everyone around us to notice that we together.

Of cause he brought alcohol along with him and his two friends by his side. He told me that I could drink and that he would look after so I took that opportunity to enjoy myself but what I really wanted was to have time alone with him.

Later that night my cousin asked him to drive to the garage and buy wood so I drove with him.

We were finally alone in the care and I was so drunk. Like I drank so much and all I wanted was for him to touch me anywhere. I took the opportunity to kiss him but he told me no that I should wait so we drove back to the party when he parked the car I obviously just gave up but then he put the car seat down and started kissing me.

  If I said the first time we kiss was better and the second time we kissed was better than the first imagine how this time right here right now could be

The moment he let down the the car seat I wasn't even surprised. I was filled with excitement waiting for him to make his next move. I watched him watch me as he slowly move closer towards me while his eyes drifted towards my lip causing me to lick it. He grabbed my face so firmly and was so sweet and gentle about it.

  The moment his lips met mine I held my breath in, closed my eyes and everything around me went black. He tasted of alcohol and cigarettes but it clearly didn't bother me. The kiss started off slow and soon after it become rough and fast and he bagan playing with the strands of my hair but never dug his fingers in it like I wanted him to.  I wanted to get up from where I was sitting and wrapped my tiny legs around him.

  I wanted him more closer to me I wanted him to touch me so badly, I wanted to feel his bare hands on me but everytime I moved his hand to where I wanted it to be he would move his hand away.

  I didn't understand why or maybe he didn't yet fully like me that much to go that far with me.

   The night ended so badly like to the point where I was so drunk I passed out. Ace told me he would take care of me he said It was okay for me to drink but I overdid it just a little bit too much. I drank from everything and got too drunk.

   I had no clue to what I was doing I just wanted Ace that's all I could have thought of. All I wanted was Ace to be near me but he was missing in action, nowhere to be found.

   I vomited all over the place I had to walk out the gate and vomited Infront of the gate while Aces friend rubbed my back and held my hair up for me

   My mother soon showed up and helped me to lay inside but I didn't want nothing from no one I wanted Ashton no I needed Ashton and my drunk ass was so stupid to shout out his name countless of times loud in the house

  I needed to sober up to lay down. I was so embarrassed of how drunk I have gotten that people had to take care of me and put me to bed.