Diary of the mentor ch18 We where rivals one's pt1.

Alicia POV

"Sis, Lucas wants to be my rival!"

How naive I one's was to utter those words without truly committing myself to it.

Back then I was young, hot-blooded and tasty for battle. I had through being rivals was just fighting.

I didn't think I also had to encouraged.

"You ....."

My heart burnt with rage not at the vampire, who I called my friend but at myself.

It's only be a year but I'll already hurt him more than enough.

I forgot his birthday because I was busy focusing on myself and now I didn't encourage.

I thought he had Vana, I thought he had Frey but forgot he also had me.

They did their part but I didn't do my.

As his rival I only fought him but never praised him.

I just saw him as my training dummy to flex my strength on.Everytime I fought him I grew whiles he compared.

As I bathed in victory, he must have cried noticing the ever expanding difference.

"Why didn't you say anything!"

Squatting to his eye level I asked.

"What are you going on about!'

Shrugging his shoulder to perhaps relief the pain from crashing he furrowed.

Normally I wouldn't have noticed but just now I felt he was a bit shaken.

He always tried to hide his true feelings by using snarky remarks.

The hit I landed on him should have ended with a scolding from him but he didn't.

Meaning he didn't want to drawn on the matter.

"Do you feel inferior by chance?" I asked choosing to be straight forward.

"Inferior...."he paused looked and looked around pretending to be clueless.

"Inferior for what?"

"That I'm better than you!"

"Not really."

"Lies!"

"Ouch!" He excalmied as I flicked my finger towards his forehead.

"What was that for?"

Staring at me with a pained expression whiles rubbing his forehead he muttered in annoyance.

He was a toughnut to crack that vampire.

Going as far as pretend such a feeble attack could hurt him.

As far as I was concern, he knew I had learnt about his inferiority complex but he also believed as long as he didn't admit it, I had nothing to prove.

"Honestly...."I smiled," you such a handful!"

Getting back on my feets, I stared down as him and...

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Hot-blooded would be an understatement as Ren observed what Alicia did next.

At first he thought the girl had given up after failing to presude luacs but the next thing he knew a burst of crimson flames ignited from her feets as she he hammered her feets straight into the vampire's guts.

Upon impact the vampire was sent flying up but just as his feets overpassed her head level she grapped on them then shifting her strength into her waist swung it down causing the boy to slammed into the ground with a force that produced a mini shockwave.

The boy's mouth spawned open upon impact as blood spill out of its and landed on the ground around him.

Dropping the boys legs, she observed the boy wiggling in agony and sighed," I guess I just have to beat it out of you!"

Right as she said that she raised her right leg with a fluid manner and with her toes pointing upward and her sole pointing downward right over the vampires stomach she smiled," so you better start speaking!"

Her expression was so eriee Ren couldn't help but shiver as the girl brought down the back of her feets like a hammer ready to temper a blade on an anvil.

"Dodge!" Ren screamed prompting luacs who had finally gain a little clarity in his eyes to roll to the left successfully evading her axe kick.

"I'm sick of you not expressing yourself!"

Before Lucas could raise up from the ground Alicia leg feet slammed into him causing him to rolling back again.

With a eye still on laucas rolling body, the grey haired girl crounched and rushed after his body.

"Time and time again...you do this shit!"

With a ferocious look on her eyes she jumped of the ground and prepared to stamped the vampire but this time she wasn't fast enough as the vampire body added more momentum to his body to avoid her attack ones he had successfully dodged he performance a hand sprang with his right hand and launched himself into the air.

Alicia eyed him up did not attack as he successfully landed on his feets ableit his landing wasn't flawless.

"What is you damned problem!"

With blood smearing the side of his mouth he cried.

"I'm trying to help you!" Alicia argued.

"By freaking beating me? huh?"

"Yes!" She answered and lunged towards him, a few distance him she clenched her right fist and swung into towards him.

Luacs quickly jumped back avoiding her attack but.....

" A faint!"

Right as he landed on his feets Alicia lengthed her left palm and straighting its like a knife before thrusted the tips foward aiming for his face.

Luacs tried ducking but all he meet was her right knee which slammed straight into his nose,causing him to stagger backwards.

"Arg..."

A ringing sounding began to feel his head as he tried maintaining his footing.

"We are family!" Alicia remarked as she slid right feets straight into his legs,tripping him and causing him to fall forward towards her.

"Jealousy is acceptable..." With a determined look she grabbed he by the shoulder as he was falling and swung him up

"Envy is normal...."

Stuffing her expression she tried slamming him back down but.....

"Just shut up!"

Lucas finally back to his sense grabbed her shoulder and used her as a handstand and right as gravity began to descend on his body causing his legs which here one's facing the sky to fall.

"Envy is normal so what?"

Right a he began to fall, he gradded Alicia by the neck and just as his feets were about landed on the ground he twisted his whole body.

"Huh!"

His sudden action flipped Alicia body upside down and before Alicia knew it she was slammed into the ground in necklock.

With the two now on the ground and luacs having Alicia in a necklock, he began to speak.

"Do you think it's that easy!"

He grimaced

"How...no why should I feel envy towards someone who took me in!"

He had grown to envy Alicia.

It wasnt only a matter of strong but her Life.

Her parents where dead but she had a sister, a luxury he ones had but was now taken away from him.

She grew up in a beautiful home while he had to grown up in that woman mansion.

In her home secure of no problem she was safe but he wasn't.

Every day, every week, every month he had to go along with the queens so called desire.Refusing meant death whiles accept meant a scar.

It was painful, it was scary and more importantly it was degrading.

So the moment he saw Alicia and Frey lost in battle he was captivated by such freedom but also envious of it.

He too wished for such freedom.

He got it but it came at a price.

The people he was captivated by where absolute monsters not in personality but in their sheer talent.

Perhaps to not feel out of place he developed the mindset of proving himself.

To who didn't matter, he just wanted to feel he wans't worthless.

"I just wanted to prove myself!"

Applying pressure on the necklock he had on Alicia he cried out.

"Yo...have nothing to prove!"

Forcefully tearing Lucas hands of her neck she muttered before delivering a kick at him.

"You right!".

Laucas still on the ground raised his arms to block her kick.

"Arg..." He groaned as the impact pushed him back.

"I have nothing to prove!"

Forcing himself up he muttered.

His violet eyes now dull and lost in light coldy gazed at Alicia who had retrieved a fell distance from him.

"You right...." He rushed towards and thrusted his right clenched fist foward.

"....you better than me!"

Alicia tiled her head to the left and avoided his attack but luacs wasn't done yet as he raised his knee and tried striking her left side with it but she intercept it with her opened right palm.

"But...."

He fell back and took a fights style again.

"...I want to prove something!"

His envy had piled up for years finally manifesting into a inferiority complex.

Anytime Alicia did something better than him, he wished he too could perform a similar feat.

But that comparison scared him.

He felt disgusted at the thought of feeling envy towards the people who took him in where he had no where to go.

"I disguised my intention as a proving my worthy...."

His stance died down as he lowered his head in shame.

His actions caused Alicia who was prepared to attack to lower her guard and simply gaze at him.

"Frey knew...and that was why he didn't want to go become an awakener. She knew my envy will stunt my growth and tried avoiding such an outcome but I didn't listen. I spouted words like being you rivals just so I could feel important, just so I could feel worthy."

His knee crumbled into the ground as tear began to rolling down his eyes.

"It hurts..." He muttered," ..knowing you so called goal is simply a product born of envy."

After years of choosing this part he realized maybe Frey had been right. Maybe he just wasn't cut out fo this path.