Mckayla_Osborne

In "Our Endings," I tell a story of a really intense friendship that ended up breaking my heart and teaching me a lot about myself. This book is all about the ups and downs of loving someone who doesn’t really love you back the same way and I’ve come to realize how unhealthy it was.

 I wrote about how I gave everything I had—my heart, my soul, and all my loyalty—to this person, but they just took it all without really caring about me. It was super hard realizing that the person I thought was my best friend didn’t value me the way I valued them.

 Each chapter talks about different feelings I went through: being anxious about things I couldn’t say, desperately wanting them to notice me, and the sadness of knowing my love and efforts were ignored as well as other things. "Our Endings" isn’t just about being heartbroken; it’s also about how the person I loved and pretty much idolized; their true intentions slowly revealed itself to me. Which lead me to finding the strength to let go of someone who was hurting me. 

It shows how hard it is to move on but also that it’s possible to find new beginnings and realize my own worth again. As well as me growing in my faith in Jesus Christ and encouraging people to follow him!This is my first book that I’m thinking of publishing so this isn’t out yet.

Our Endings

Our house of cards started off great. Our base started off with genuine happiness, effort, commitment, honesty, openness, loyalty, respect, peacefulness, encouragement, strength, beaming, and Exhilarating. Every Time I was sad, you were my safe space in my mind, always there no matter what. I made up this more ideal version of you, which made me feel comforted when I thought about you.

Then the 5 other attributes that go across the 12 things I listed. Amazing memories of each other, laughter, generosity, love, and acceptance. And these 17 things made up the base of our house of cards.

Then we went to the second story of our house of cards. Where it started to become shaky slightly but we held onto each other, making it through no matter what.

Our second floor held different attributes than the first one.

We slowly started to tolerate each other, we became more closed off, we became something I couldn't tell was good or bad or if it was unhealthy. You confessed to me and I rejected you, but I loved you, it just wasn't the right time. We were young, and I wasn't allowed to date.

Yet even at the second and third floor, knowing our house of cards were slowly falling apart, we kept on.

As we made it to the 4th story, we couldn't even walk across it. It was so unstable that even if we took one step, our whole house of cards would fall apart. I started to panic but soon you find a ladder so we can climb to the 5th floor together. I smiled as you climbed up the ladder to the 5th floor.

I looked away from the ladder for a second and looked at the ground of the 4th floor and cringe in disgust as I saw the black bubbling goo that covered the whole 4th floor. All of our unresolved issues, conflicts, and challenges that have accumulated over time, became this goo that could have been the doom of us.

I soon saw a word rise above the goo, covered in the black goo, the words, "Secret" showed and I felt my body run cold.

I knew it was about me, I quickly turned away from the goo and looked back at the ladder.

As I picked up my feet to go onto the ladder, I felt it being pushed back and quickly got off it, seeing that it fell down to the ground and I looked up to you, seeing you smirking.

Soon I realized I only started to follow  and be with you because of familiarity and because I've known you for so long.

The goo splashed onto my feet and clothing, I felt a burning sensation but I was focused on you and finding you.

You were the one that pushed it off the house so I couldn't get up there with you.

Hours later I finally made it to the 5th floor, until I heard trumpets and saw confetti falling from the sky.

You were already at the top, I thought you would have waited for me at the 5th floor since there were two spots just for us and we could have stayed there forever. Yet, you went to the 6th floor, where there is only one spot.

I should have known you wouldn't wait since we were technically in second place. I sighed as I was about to jump from the house of cards until I felt a force come down on my body, telling me to kneel.

Soon I collapsed to the ground which was a card of hearts. Ironic I thought and I felt the heat of the sun on the 6th floor, which was you. I moved my body to peak at the 6th floor and saw you wearing a crown on your head.

Sitting on a throne, ready to be worshiped. A king of light I saw, and immediately started to idolize you. Like you were the center of my world, the center of our house of cards when it was supposed to be the both of us, together, ruling the house of cards.

I kneel, knowing this was the only way to keep our house of cards together, and the fact I was still blinded from the sun radiating off of you.

This was my end to our beginnings. Knowing this would be my new doom, before being buried like you used to do to me before. Killing me in my hole you dug.

My end to Our endings. Making me uneasy to know how this would end for us.

(L) Chapter Four