Drowning in truth- chapter 25

The truth can be overwhelming, you think you have it all planned out , you think you are ready for it all and then paow the truth slaps you right across the face , such is life .. but I'm not ready for that life yet and yet again I'm showed that I don't have a choice and I don't know what I'll do with the truth or how to react to it .

I'm not a typical girl , normal girls would have gone out to dance or flirt away their sorrows but not me.. now don't get me wrong I'm flirty , damn I'm sexy but I'm not feeling anything today .. I woke up with a splitting headache, scratch that a migraine .. I slept by 6 pm and woke up the next day , it was like I was dunked in a river or something, I forced myself to go take a bath , and my dorm was empty .. don't know where they went and don't care . Now I lay in bed with my headphones listening to Alec Benjamin tell me stories .. through his music , dudes amazing not gonna lie .. I drift off into the abyss , and also Rami didn't give me back my bottle yesterday.. thats enough thinking .

" Diana ... Diana " I blink slowly , ughh I slept off "Rami ?" I didn't hear him come in

" I didn't hear you come in " I take of my headphones " of course you didn't princess"

" You good now ?"

" Define good Rami ? Not drunk ? Well yh but good ? I don't know"

" It's okay to be sad .. but just don't drown in it okay ?"

" I guess "

" Good because you are going out of your dorm and to the library with me "

" I am ?"

" Yes we are going to finally take a look at the book "

" We are?"

" Yes princess we are .. now get up " noooo ugh no I shake my head vigorously a fibble attempt at saying no to Ramiro

" Yes GET UP ".

" Ugh fine but you won't make me talk to anyone " I point at him

" Sure ! No talking " .

" *Sighs* okay let's go " I walk behind him and shut the door . .

" To the front "

" Oh common you drag me out of bed , now you tell me where to walk ? "

" Don't make it sound that way .. " .

I grumble but still come to his front

" What's next? Where to sit .. ?"

" That won't be necessary... " He drawls as we enter the library and as soon as we enter I see what he means .

At the left side of the library behind the science book shelf is a new table surrounded with my friends and two enemies .. yes Damon and Stacy are my enemies now and the only seat left is the one in between them ..

" No ! I'm not sitting there " I declare as we approach the table .

" Well unless someone's willing to trade sits then you don't have a choice princess " he smiles and goes to sit down .

While I hesitate , biting my inner mouth or whatever for a few seconds before going to sit

" My my Alejandro ! You look stunning today brother .. "

" Of course I do D ! I'm always fabulous "

" Well then that seat most certainly does you no good ... Let's trade seats " I feel Damon's stare but I don't turn to look

" Well why -"

" Don't be a fool Ale she's just tryna trick you into changing sits .. " Rami laughs and throws his head back

" Damn it Rami !! It was working " I watch as Ale gasps

" Oh common you didn't really think you look good now did you ?" I ask him

" You deserve to sit there !" He glares at me .. ugh so dramatic

" Can we start ? " Damon's voice booms from beside me .. probably out of anger but I don't care .. of course I'd want to change seats .

" Okay ! " Dante claps his hands to draw everyone's attention towards himself, as he picks the book from a bag and places it on the table ... With a dramatic effect of course

" I present to you ... The tome of severance" he drawls

" Even from the name it tells us we shouldn't be messing with it .. " inéz grumbles

" Relaxx " Ale calms her

" So we gonna read it or what ? I have things to do " I ask them

" Busy with what? Solitude time ? " Stacy asks

" Yes not that you know any thing about it , since you can't even stay on your own for one second "

" Oh no .. the only reason you are on your own is because you can't face Damon !" This bitch !

" I'm literally breathing the same air as him ... But if you don't stop talking you won't be doing the same anymore " she flinches then scoffs .. pathetic

" Princess !!! Thats enough..."

" Okay" I raise my hands up

"Here " Dante Hands the book over to me

" Thanks ! " The beginning is like a story .. not all books begin with 'detstruction and new begginings '

" Well it's mostly certainly quite - interesting"

They all move to my back so they can see .. but all Damon has to do is lean into me .. I hate his cologne

" Okay moving on " I move the page to the next 6 pages , it's not giving me anything useful

" Okayy here's something" I read it out loud .." when darkness unites with darkness... The world goes into an endless void ! Souls wondering why darkness taints their lovely household ! The future shall not be told but lived out ! For one works the shadows .. and one works with the fire and the air we breathe in , tainting it with pure impurities .. when united the rest fall .. The gifted ones are powerful enough separately.. to err is human and to destroy Is them when they are together .. Heed my warnings ! Keep them apart, for destruction follows ." Well .... Okay

" I feel like that just said us being together is bad , all it said was bad ! " Dante exclaims

" I'm sure if we check there should be like something else written " Rami says while closing the book shut in my hands

" So not only do you lie to me .. we are also not even meant to be.. that's just perfect Damon .. perfect " I exclaim and slouch in my chair, he sits back beside me staring at me " I didn't know that ... how would I have known that .. and it still doesn't matter .. we are together that's what matters . "

" Are we ? "

" What ?"

" Are we together Damon ? "

" Of course we are Kocheshka"

" Then why ? .. why did you lie to me .. why ? " I feel the others eyes boring holes into me

" Mhmm excuse me " I stand up to leave

" Diana wait... Kochesh- "

" No !! Youu don't get to call me that ! No ! So not only will we drown the world in darkness I'll also..... dro-wn ? " My voice breaks at the last world

" The book said nothing about you drowning koch-Diana " he whispers

" No but don't you see I am ... I'm drinking .. I'm downing in the truth that's unraveling itself so fast .. Damon "

" I'm sorry " he tells me but I don't think that's the point

" That's not the point ! The .. the - the point is I'm drowning ! And I'm dieing from all this ! And annoyingly it all started with you Damon ! With your lies .. and now the truth is choking me "

" I'm sorry !" I apologize to the room and run out .. I don't stop at the dorm I just run and run and cry and scream till I'm at the fountain " I can't , I can't " that's all I scream and shout while a lake pours off my face .

" I don't want to cry anymore .. " I tell myself looking into the fountain