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Sometimes you can't be who you want to be and sometimes you can't do what you want to do.

That is the daily life of our anti-heroine. She is over powered with innate and learned magics and abilities but she does not have them to use them. she has them because she was born with them and she learns quickly. 

for her it is about acquisition not utilization. She wants to have power to understand power but she doesn't want to serve and protect. 

but it is out of her hands because she is Rachel, the Milana of Trannisa realm. her purpose is to maintain a balance dictated by the realm.

she is there when she has to be and when she is not needed she is off learning new things. 

so what happens when she is suddenly needed all the time? will her habit of avoidance become a mask of doubt and insecurity. 

so will she be a flawed being and pass the torch or will she endure in self doubt and constant insecurity. 

or is there a third option that has been there all along and completely out of her control?

Swept

Rachel found colored pools of enlightenment shards and crystals. She stopped being so surprised after the third pool. She realized many who came here probably never even got far enough to see the pools let alone actually enter them and take any of the shards or crystals.

'When you go into Doubting Joy remember Joy may not be what you think it is. And doubts can come from within and without and may not even concern you at all.'

Rachel nodded as the river spoke to her. She explained so much but always said so little. She heard the river giggle in her mind and she realized that she thought that in a way that the river could hear. She shrugged.

Finally they came to a vertical fold in the fabric of the plane. It stood at the center of the now wide river. It shimmered as if energy pulses moved up and down its length. The shimmers continually changed color and color had a different feel to its energy.