Understanding each other more precisely.

I know how it felt when everyone ignored you and bullied you but why did you choose to be friends with me? Aren't you afraid of me betraying you? Ryan replied,you would never ever do that to me Emily and I know that you are a good person and didn't become friends with me because of my popularity.I never regretted being friends with you. You are a person with a good heart and you don't chase boys like the other girls,this is the reason why I decided to be friends with you. We talked for an hour and then the bell rang. So,Ryan returned to the Blake highschool. After coming home,I was feeling a bit at ease since I got to talk to soemone so comfortably after a long time. My caretaker Lily doesn't have much time for me since, she herself,has to take care of her sick mother. Shes busy but still cares about me a lot. I decided to take a bath since I was very tired. When I was changing my clothes, I found a key chain in my pocket. It had the initial E on it. I dont know how it came inside my pocket. I was staring at the key chain,when I received a phone call. It was Ryan,he asked me if I liked the key chain or not. I asked him,why he gave it to me. He told me that I was staring at that key chain when we were at the carnival. I told him to forget about it since it was a month ago. I told him that I did not like it,and hung up the call. Honestly,I did like it,it's true that I was staring at it and I liked it but the truth is,I was staring at it because it reminded me of Eric. I decided to keep it with me until the day I confess to Eric about my feelings. The next day,I woke up, got ready,had breakfast and left for school since today,was the final match. This was the last competition and we had to win it. I went to school,and started looking for Ryan,today the competition was going to be held at our school. I asked Ryan,if he was feeling nervous,he told me that I was the one who looked nervous and laughed. I told him that he looked cute while laughing,I didn't want to say this but it just slipped out of my mouth. Ryan replied,finally you accepted it,I suppose I am handsome. He went to the washroom and told me to wait for him outside. Ryan's thoughts: I don't know why I am so flushed,I never imagined that I would actually start to fall for her,this feeling is so irritating. After Ryan went to the washroom,I saw Eric sitting on a bench all alone. I sat beside him and asked him what was going on with him. He told me to mind my own business and was going into the classroom again. I asked him why he always ignored me,and hated me. He told me that he just did,and if I don't know why he hated me then I am just a shameless person who chased him around for no reason. I thought that this was the chance to tell him the truth,so I told him that, I liked him for a long time. He started laughing sarcastingly and told me to stop lying. I told him that I really liked him and was not lying. I asked him if he liked me back or not,he boldly rejected me and told me to stay away from him. I started crying and he walked away. I don't know what I have done to deserve this,he didn't even care to look back and just walked away like nothing happened. Ryan came,and told me to stop crying and let Eric go since it would be good for both me and Eric. He told me to stop crying and asked me to start preparing for the competition. I was still overwhelmed,so he told me,that we can skip the competition if we wanted to. I have been friends with Ryan for over 3 months and I know,how important this competition is for him. He would never ever leave a debate competition like this for someone. Maybe I had a crush on the wrong person or maybe he pitied me. I told him,that a useless and shameless person like me doesn't deserve his kindness. He asked me why I was saying this,I told him that I felt useless because even my parents didn't talk to me and ignored me. And even Eric didn't like me,and called me a shameless person. Ryan asked me,if he could give me an advice,I agreed and decided to take his advice. He told me that before loving someone else,loving yourself is the most important thing. If you don't know how to love yourself you'll never be able to love someone else. You need to know your worth and should also be proud of yourself. You may get bad grades and you may be chasing Eric like a dog. But you're still a good person,you have a good personality and can never hurt anyone. And in my opinion,sometimes it's best to let your loved ones go since everyone isn't meant to be with you. So stop comparing yourself to Estelle. She has her own speciality of betraying people and you have your own. If you think you're a bad perosn then let me tell you that you're not a bad person. I am always happy, whenever I am with you. I hope you will try your best to let Eric go since he doesn't like you and already has someone he likes. You may not be able to sleep for a few days,but believe me,it will feel much better after you forget him. Emily replied,I think you're right but it will take me some time to forget him,maybe an year but I will try my best to forget him.