First exam in emotions

In third period the teacher was giving everyone their exam sheets. This exam was crucial for graduation;

Graduation would take place in a few months. Basically, this was the giant exam which could either save or destroy our grade. At least in mathematics.

I haven't learned as much as I had planned. My original plan was for me to learn yesterday. But then the suicide, as well as my meeting with the suicide's victim happened. So that didn't happen.

Luckily, though, I am pretty skilled in mathematics. While I won't be able to ace the exam, it should still be pretty manageable.

The exam officially began. I took my pen and, first off, wrote down my name on the sheet. Then I skimmed through the thing.

Everything was doable. There were two tasks which could cause a bit of trouble but even those should be possible. Everything else would be finished within a few minutes.

So I stared at the sheet.

"Dontcha dare write anythin."

"Huh?" I twisted my head and looked at Felix.

"You gon give em your sheet blank."

"But that's bad for my-"

"Don't care, that's what ya gon do if ya want emotions."

I was stunned. To be honest, I was about to do it anyway. Or rather not do anything, really.

If I were to fail this test, I might feel bad. I might regret not writing anything down. Heck, my teacher might even see this and talk to me. They might ask me why I didn't write anything down. They might contact my mother. Then they would scold me together. And then I wouldn't feel good at all.

While that isn't very likely, since the school doesn't seem to care about anyone, which one can observe through the sheer fact that they let us write such an important exam one day after one of our classmates killed the self, the probabilies aren't zero.

But I was scared. I didn't know If I could go through with it alone. But it seems as though Felix had the very same line of thought and had concluded the very same conclusion as me: Not writing down anything on this test would be the best thing I could do to accomplish my goal.

It's kinda strange though. My whole life I tried to excel in school. Everyone told me that that is the one thing I should do. But just one day together with Felix, one day together with emotions... was all it took to convince me to throw it all away.

Time ran away anyway. I sat there, not moving a single inch. And shortly after, everything was finished. The teacher went through the classroom and took every sheet back in. While for everyone else this was a test of knowledge and intelligence, for me this was merely a test of determination. And my determination had proven itself. I gave the blank sheet to my teacher. They only saw the front page. While they were confused (I could read it on their face) they didn't seem to care either way.

And with that, the next period began.

And then nothing important happened for the rest of the day. I just sat there. Sometimes, Felix said something. But most of the time, class just took place. I sat there. And because it was Felix seat, I had to imitate her. And so I placed one hand behind my head, the other one on the table. I even tried to place my legs on it, but that didn't work out. Felix even seemed to have different pants... Which was predictable.