Never again

My tears ran freely, and my heart grew unbearably heavy. It was a miracle it was still inside my chest. His expression gave me the answer to my question without him needing to speak.

He didn't deny it.

"Why?" The word trembled from my lips, barely audible.

Christian simply stared at me, his silence slicing through the fragile remnants of my composure. 

"I deserve an explanation." I demanded, my voice rising with each syllable, "Why did you hate me so much?"

"Alora…" he started, his voice softer than I expected, but then nothing. 

He stopped. It was maddening seeing him silent. He could at least defend himself. Or tell me he was sorry. Or maybe, just maybe, he could kneel and beg and tell me he was wrong. Anything was better than this silence. 

What was I supposed to do? How could I begin to forgive him if he doesn't defend himself?