Was He Hurt?

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ELIANA'S POV;

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Why did I feel bad?

Why is my chest hurting from yelling at him?

I'm not supposed to care but why do I care so much?

Why do I keep on seeing that sad look on his face every minute?

What's wrong with me? I'm supposed to be upset and now I'm feeling bad for yelling at him.

I combed my hair with my fingers, frustrated. I'm not feeling bad, I told him my mind that's all that matters.

I'm sorry…

His voice came again, much more louder than before, holding the same sadness, the same hurt that It did when he said it.

Urghhhhh

I'm going insane!

I breathed in sharply calming my crazy nerves then walked back to my room. It's been a long day and I needed to get some rest. That's the only way I can clear my head.

I walked to my room and shut the door behind me, my heart racing in my chest. I blinked and stray tear stained my cheeks.

Why in the world am I crying?

Stop it Seraph!

I wiped the tears off and made my way to my bed, pulling the blanket over me, letting the comfort wash over me. My lids grew heavy and soon, I fell asleep.

Morning approached quickly, the sun spilled into the room like a cracked egg and the annoying sounds of birds chirping filled the air. I didn't want to get up yet…

I slept late last night and I feel like I deserve some more minutes of peaceful sleep. But I guess the world is against that too as I was interrupted by the annoying sound of a knock on my door!!

Who in the world was that?

" Come in." I groaned, my voice laced with exhaustion.

The door opened and the sound of footsteps followed. " Good morning, Princess." It was Amara.

I threw the blanket off and rubbed my eyes with the back of my palm, a dry yawn escaping my lips. " Good morning— What are you doing here?"

" You said I should wake up today so you'll get some more time to check out the library." Shit! the library.

I had totally forgotten, especially since this Xavier fiasco and these crazy emotions I've been feeling lately. " Thanks for reminding me!" I picked myself up from the bed and went to brush my teeth while she prepared my bath.

I felt rejuvenated after that bath, I really needed it. " Here's your outfit of the day My Lady," Amara chimed with a smile, showcasing a beautiful cream dress, with gold lines around the neck and waist. The arms featured a flowery embroidery which looked simple but elegant.

She also was getting quite familiar with me, I liked it.

" It's pretty, let's hurry. I need to get to that library!" She nodded and helped me out with the dress tightening all the corsets and buttons then helped me with my hair.

We finished the look with some beautiful flowers on my hair and some classy shoes then left the room.

As I walked down the halls with Amara trailing behind me, I noticed that all the worker and maids were staring at me. It was getting under my skin a little bit but I hid my discomfort.

We reached the library and continued our search for some books but saw nothing. Who would've thought that finding a book about Vampires could be this tiring.

But we didn't stop, until Noon and I was exhausted also I could tell that Amara was already getting visibly frustrated. " My Lady." She called. I looked up from my corner.

" Yes?"

" I don't think there are any Vampire books in here." she stated the obvious and I sighed.

If only Sebastian was here.

He was the only one who knew alot about these creatures, I do hope that Magnus finds him soon.

" You know what? I've not had anything all day and I'm completely famished, please ask the chef to prepare lunch for me." She nodded. I muttered my thanks and continued with my search while she left to inform the chefs.

I reached the particular painting again. The one about a King, it was still crooked and I didn't known why I felt drawn to it. Maybe because I love perfection but I badly wanted to straighten it but it was too big and high up.

I can't do this alone.

I wish I was still Seraph, I would have shifted into Lila and turned the portrait but I Seraph was gone and now, I was Eliana. The weak Princess.

I missed Lila, I missed home, I missed my people and most of all, I missed mum. She probably would be heartbroken, especially since her only child had died.

As my thoughts consumed me, I didn't know when tears rolled down my cheeks, wetting my face. Why was I crying alot these days?

I was about to wipe my tears when a voice rang out. " Hey—"

Was it Xavier?

Was he here to talk things out?

Although it's not like I cared but I still wanted to talk to him.

I turned but to my disappointment, it was one of his brothers, not the brute; Damon or the one was rude to me that day but the one who was oddly quiet.

I cleaned my face and sniffed quietly. " Hey."

He walked to me, his footsteps echoed across the dusty room. " You okay?" He asked and I shook my head.

" Yeah, I'm fine." I replied, hoping he would leave me alone but he pushed further.

" But you were crying? You don't seem fine?" He said searching my face as though looking for something.

" I just missed home a little, that's all." Why was I opening up to him?

" Oh, sorry about that. It gets quite lonely in the palace." He shot me a look and I smiled. " Yeah it does."

" Would you like to go to the garden? I'm sure it'll cheer you up—" he offered and I was about to reply when a voice spoke up for me.

" She doesn't want to." The person spoke and I turned to see it was Xavier. What was he doing here.

The guy's lips fell. " Ok, I wasn't planning on forcing her or anything. I just wanted to cheer her up, that's all." He explained and I couldn't help but feel happy. Maybe he could be the friend I never had.

At least he cared about me. " No, she doesn't. Now get out!" Xavier growled and the guy walked out.

At that point, I became furious. " What's wrong with you!" I snapped as he came close to me.

" What did he say!" He inquired, his voice rising. Why was he suddenly angry? Wasn't he the one who'd been avoiding me all day? Why does he suddenly care that some guy is talking to me?

" Nothing." I shrugged. " I asked you first so tell me. What are you doing here?"

He looked away, his anger vanished now replaced with something else. " I just wanted to talk that's all—"

" Now you what to talk? Yesterday you made me feel bad for being mad at you and now you want us to talk? Talk about what!" The words slipped. Why was I telling him this?

I mentally facepalmed. Just bury me.

I could see a smirk formed on his face. " You felt bad?" His voice dropped low.

I suddenly felt weird under his gaze. " N-No, when did I say that?"

" Just now."

" I didn't, forget it. What do you want to talk about?" I was already feeling those butterflies again. His eyes were dangerously close to mine and I hated it.

" We're you crying?" He suddenly asked.

Why did he care?

" It's none of your business." I didn't like sharing my feelings but it seemed like my Husband wanted me to.

Not like he cared, he'd been ignoring me ever since the day I mentioned… Sebastian

Wait.

Was he jealous?

" Why do you care? You didn't want to see me before— so why do you care now." I said and I could see a hint of hurt in his eyes.