missing you

(@qt.inniejin on IG)

he left you, he left you standing in the rain while you called out his name, calling him to come back. that night you threw away the framed pictures of the two of you together, burned everything that was his. you held onto the shattered pieces of glass as tight as you held onto his hand begging him to not leave. you danced your sorrows away, well at least tried to. crying yourself to sleep was another way to cope with the situation. he hurt you, he broke you, and you will never be you ever again. for the past two years, you avoided the internet and the genre of kpop as best as you could because you knew the moment you saw or ever just heard his voice, you wouldn't be able to handle it and just mentally breakdown.

you were just shopping like any regular person would, not until you saw him... him and his group. their poster was plastered across the wall as if it was meant to find you. "chan, you did it. you finally got what you wanted after all your hard work. i'm sorry i couldn't help." he left you for his career, even if you held him back that day the only thing you would've done was drag him down. "straykids?" you memorized the group name. you wanted to hear his voice, you wanted to support him with everything you have now. you accepted the fact that his career was always more important than you. you were at first just trying to find out all their names, but you mindlessly bought P1 tickets to their D9: unlockinSEOUL. you physically and mentally hit yourself, even if he saw you would he still be able to recognize you... it has been two years since he last saw you.