Past

"You're really cute, you chubby little thing!"

"Sister Si, let me have him. You already carrying him for 30 minutes! No fair!"

"Blah! Blah! Do you see that Young Master Yi protesting? So let me carry him for another 30 minutes!"

"No fair!!"

Yeah... Let her have me, do you see I'm in heavens now. With how low-class all of the pillow and futons in here I couldn't sleep peacefully, so let me have this big tit to be my pillow, for a while!!

Burying my face in her two slight tan-skinned tits, I made a "Muemue" sound.

"Do you like my breast, young master?"

No.

She asked me with greed.

It might be out of context, of how this young maiden asking a f*cking barely 1-year-old child to have her but, having her spot in the future was already guaranteed success.

Me being born in a clan and on top of that a child of the official head, I'll be entering the cultivation world. And she was going to benefit from it.

"Before you eat this, my friend, just reminding you that whatever you see, on the other side, was not gonna be actually similar to what you grow at. So that's a minus there. But everything I think will be the same. So good luck and have fun!!"

Looks like that old fart was right, things are not different in this world as far as I remember.

Well, you see, before I could enter the world of cultivation, I need to have some woman Yin to awaken my dantian. Things that didn't make any sense to me... I mean not at all...

Clan House Courtyard

"Come here, little dumpling. Come here."

Fuck you woman, go away...!

I wasn't interested in playing but, I gladly play with her tit. There's no malicious thought in me, having to fondle my mother's twin breast but.

High-class woman is really the best!

But don't worry mother, I love you... Not sexually, of course...

Jin Li Na was my mother in the past and in this present day. She was a lovely woman who protects me when I am a child back then to my bastard father. And yeah, even he was still my father this time.

Good thing, for me... Now I'll let him taste his own dick for himself.

But anyways enough of that dirt, let's focus on this fluffy thing.

"Little brother you're really cute!"

Stop pinching my cheeks, I don't even know you are!

For some whatever reason, I've had big sisters this time.

Jin Fan Lihua and Jin Fan Lijuan, their twin if you could tell on their name.

The twin took their mother appearance. Soft-silky long black hair, white-milk skin, and obviously would have a body like her in the future.

She was becoming an annoyance at the moment now as she constantly pinching my cheeks non-stop.

I slap her hand away from me but instead her getting shocked by my behavior, she finds it cute and attacked me once again.

"Now, now. Stop that Lihua. Or else his cheeks would go sag in the future."

"As if! My little brother is cute, and forever will be!!"

How thoughtful of you... But still, stop that!!

I looked at her grinning face as she fond my face with her five-year-old soft hand.

Sigh...

I'll let her be and buried my face again on my heavenly pillow...

Having a child body, I drift inside my dream easily and woke up before the sunset.

I was inside my crib, alone by myself...

Closing my eyes, after seeing no one will come before my breast milk, I started cultivating... Without success once again...

This reality was really peculiar because the cultivation system has been changed, or should I say, how to cultivate properly.

Being a male you will have Yang as your Qi, and for female was Yin, to balance the law of this world.

The world law is pretty f*ck up on my point of view. Before males can access the actual Qi to cultivate they needed Yin female Qi to awaken it.

But that's not all, apparently, woman has some advantage over it. They could block or reject male awakening those resulting from some gender superiority in the society of the cultivation world.

Although that was the case, it only applied to the actual clans and sects out there. And for my clan, it was not worthy to be called clan actually.

Only the patriarch and his retainer are only the cultivators in this house. On top of that, they are only Elementary Qi practitioners! A laughable thing to boast about.

This bastard father of mine even needs to pay a lowly outer disciple of some sect before he can cultivate with her and enter the Profound Spirit Qi Realm!

Just thinking about it, I could help but laugh at how frustrating could that be!

Pfft! Half of the clan asset has been sell just to let him be the first Profound Spirit Qi practitioner in the house, and even shamelessly calling him a genius.

A genius my ass!

Welp, enough of that rant... Let talk about my own problem...

Well, the only problem I had was to start cultivating at an early age but that thing can be solved easily.

Now for my past, actually what would happen now? now that I traveled in my past with some changes. Are all event would happen too? Or not...?

I can still vaguely remember the famous names in the world but only this time the women are on the top...

Like the Ghost Princess of the north, Fire Empress of the south, or the Goddess of Alchemy Cang Yue.

But most notably, the love of my life, Empress Fairy Yi Jian.

As the same, she was the most talented practitioners both in my actual past and in this past.

And If I still remember, she'll be entering Middle Realms after her succession in heavens tribunal twenty-years prior from now on.

She was the sole reason that I became a practitioner from the very start.

I wanted to be by her side, to love her, to her to notice my existence in her life.

We became companions for a long time, but even though I stayed by her side for almost thousand of years she didn't notice my feeling for her. Although I didn't implicitly show it, it was still readable on my motives of what I wanted.

But still, I wanted to let her notice me no matter what even if it takes eternity.

So her second world heavens tribunal came again, to ascend her in heavens, and after that, I didn't hear anything from her anymore, so I thought she successfully entered heavens and waiting for me to ascend.

So I diligently without brake cultivate non-stop. I wanted to be by her side as fast as I could, so any man can't replace my position beside her.

But no, the reality was far cruel than that...

Her ascension did not happen, and I only did know about it after a thousand years ago after I search for him in every corner of the heavens and decided to descend to Middle Plane.

Her smooth-skinned became old. Her peerless face turned wrinkled and amiable as an actual grandma, waiting for me in a rural mountain village.

My mind goes blank that day, in all our conversation, I was out of my mind.

Where's the woman I love?

Where is the woman I live for?

What happened to her?

Is that all I could think of, l was broken inside. I couldn't even look at her in the eyes in the entire conversation, scared that she was not as I was thinking she is...

She sends me off on the mountain, the last time I will see her in my life. But before I could fly away and never turned back, I heard her melancholy voice spoke...

"You're just like any other man, Yi. You all only thought how beautiful I was and didn't even consider my feelings. Y'all thought I was top over all of you and the chance of taking interest to any of you all are nonexistent to be optimistic about."

"I thought Yi, you were apart on everybody as you stayed by my side for a thousand years, never looking to any woman that you encounter. Your eyes were only for me, for me only forever. But no, you are just like anyone. You didn't look at me like a normal girl, you look at me like a goddess that out of your reach, hoping I'll would look at you and take you with me."

"I just... I just wanted to be a normal girl... Have a normal husband, normal kids, normal house... I wanted to be courted like a young maiden in love... I just... I just wanted all of you to look at me normally - that a normal woman could experience in her life..."

"I didn't wish to be powerful, to have a peerless look that every woman envy at and men can lust out of it... I just wan...ted to be normal..."

"So goodbye, Yi. I hope you have a safe journey... Be safe..."

After hearing that I run away like a coward. I don't want to look at her face... I just don't...

Maybe she's right, I only look at her face and not for her feelings. I looked up to her as though she was heaven and I'm only dust on the earth that hoping to be lifted by the air and flow over at her embrace...

I wanted to forget about her, to forget my feelings about her. I don't want to look at her wrinkled face again in my dream... I wanted to forget her whole existence in my life...

So I thrive to become a deity above the heavens, hoping to erase all of my earthly feelings... I wanted to erase my humanity inside me...

And I succeeded... But for what...? Just like, in the beginning... I have nothing...

Yeah... I have nothing to brag about...

I was a slave at a young age after my mother died when I was five-years-old. With only the dirt earth as my bed and once a hard loaf of bread a day to eat, I have no worth, to begin with.

But you save me back then... With all of the people out of there, you show me warmth that I thought I wouldn't experienced anymore. But you did it...

And looking back to it, and the old face she had a thousand years after it. I can clearly remember it,

She is the only one who smiles at me genuinely...

With many years of our journey, you tried to show me how you wanted to be a normal girl.

You cook food even though we don't need to fill out stomach anymore...

You build a wooden house in each destination we came upon even though we don't need sleep...

Plucking flowers in the flower bed, singing lullaby under the warm sunlight, spoking to animals as though you understood them, you did it all like a normal girl would do... And I rejected it all... Refusing everything that you offer to me because I will stain it, scared that I'll do something wrong that you find displeasing to see... I'm scared to lose you... But I did...

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I'm a fucking bastard...

"Uwaa..!! Wahhh..."

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