THE VOID

It feels as though everyone's waiting for the right opportunity,

Holding a grudge and,

Trying to make me feel worthless as shit.

I am not prepared enough to stand on my own,

The way their words made my scars bleed again from what was forgotten.

Sinking into the depth of the ocean floors,

Was I delusional like she said?

Where are my manners, you ask?

When you were the one who made me sink deeper into my living hell.

This void you left me in,

Broke me down till I could not breathe.

You left me in a position I could never accept myself in,

Questioned and was beaten by the thoughts you left me paralyzed with.

You pulled me down to your hell,

I wish I could forget every single word you told me that day.

You crossed your limit with your words,

Your kind gestures only made me suffer more.

I felt worthless.

Till I felt strangled by my own thoughts.

I wanted to commit suicide.

I thought that was my only escape from reality.

You made me miserable,

I started to have unwanted thoughts.

I was in search of a way out.

But you made me feel as though my birth was an error,

That I didn't deserve this life.

You made me feel frustrated,

That I would never be good enough.

This Void.

The more I walk into this void,

The more I see myself fade within.

Maybe I might not even wake up in reality.

Nothing made sense until I realized,

It wasn't my fault in the first place.

But,

There is no turning back once I have gone into the deepest dark void.