PSYCHOLOGIST

My worst nightmare is here,

Hoping I don't have to see him this way.

A person who ruined my life back then

My abuser,

Is here to finish me off for good.

My heart is racing,

My mind is losing control.

I have been patient,

Hoping it would never have to come to this.

My life is turning upside down,

I thought I was getting better.

Hope for a brighter future.

But now I just feel like all my hope is crumbling and crashing back to the ground.

I never thought that,

I would see him here as a psychologist.

Who will have access to all my files in the mental health hospital?

I can't hold in my cry,

It hurts to know that all I had achieved has just got wasted.

I don't want to go through the abuse again,

That part of me died the moment I chose to forgive and forget him.

But here he is,

In front of me.

Watching me go down into the darkest void.

I feel helpless,

Now no one would believe me.

He has the authority on his side,

And I am a loser that no one would care about anymore.

I am just too scared,

To let out a voice.

To let my friends or family or doctors know,

He is a monster in disguise.

I want them to know,

How I feel inside.

But knowing the chances that he will have victory,

Over everything, I would say against him.

Just the thought of him,

Makes me shiver and cry,

Sending chills down my spine.

I wish he wouldn't make me feel so unsafe again.

But he has the upper hand,

The authorities are on his side now.

People will believe him no matter what,

Cause he is a Psychologist and I will always be a patient of the mental health hospital.