THE BATTLE WITHIN MY MIND

It feels like my mind is struggling to breathe,

Every time I get so frightened of what my present seems to be.

My mind is filled with curses and rejection,

But now everything is falling apart.

I know that you are proud of your achievements,

Of making me feel unsafe.

Your plan was a success,

In showing everyone my entire existence was worthless.

You had scattered my mind into pieces,

It misplaced my identity,

Changed the way I felt for the people I once cherished the most.

I trusted you with all that I had.

I tried to be good enough,

A better friend.

But now, I don't even know who the hell I am.

I lost myself while finding a reason to be with you,

While you broke me more than I could ever fix myself.

No one to talk to,

No one to share a laugh.

Everyone's got a reason,

A reason to stay away.

You let it flood into me,

Left the poison to spread,

Even if I were to save myself,

There is no cure for any of this.

I wish I could escape this living hell.

This Trauma hits me too damn well,

Like those weapons fired at war,

Leaving me crippled inside my head.