Chapter 186

Miguel's pov

Daniel and Donald placed my babies on the bed beside me.

Nabel's eyes sparkling when the landed on me. Her mouth curving into a baby smile.

"Come here baby girl," I carried her before carrying Lijah who was blinking with his eyes. 

I felt really content with my babies safe in my arms. Their happy babbling voices music to my depraved ears.

"I really missed you two," I smile at them.

"She looks like you," Donald said in awestruck wonder. 

My heart froze at his words.

I can't count how many times I've wished to hear words like this from my mates' mouth, but it came a tad bit late.

"Can I have a moment privacy with my babies?" I look at them in question. 

I have to be alone to plan my next action. 

With them here with me, I can't think clearly. Their nearness is really disturbing me. It's making me not to fully focus on things.

"Miguel ...."

"Can I have a moment of privacy with my babies? Can't you do that for me? Is it too much to ask for? "

" No. You can have as much time as you want with them. " Donald answered for his brothers. 

" If you need anything...." Damien starts to say, but I cut hit words off.

" I won't need anything, at least not from you."

I will be damned if I ask for help from them.

I might have some do for my babies, but I won't do the same for any other thing . 

I watch after them as they closed the door softly behind them.

*

I stayed with them for two days, and in those two days they've tried everything in their power to make me talk with them, but I don't do so.

Far be it that I will talk with the same males that rejected me for Manuel.

Try all I may, I can't forget the words Manuel said to me. Those words kept on haunting me even to this moment.

How can my mates agree to get joined with someone like Manuel?

Why will they easily forget all about me just because Manuel told them to do so?

They might have warned me when they came to the town I lived in, but it's not out of love. It's mainly out of guilt for what they did to me. 

They must have felt really guilty for them to do something of that sort.

*

Bianca came to visit me, and just like I did my mates, I didn't give her the time of the day.

After all they won't see me in their park if my babies gets really strong enough to travel. 

"Miguel you need to believe me, I've tried to get to you, but my guilt made it not possible." Bianca who looked a little bit older than she was when I left the pack begged, but I still didn't give out any indication of wanting to talk with her or anything of that sort. 

i have no business with a friend who ceased to be one in a time of tribulation. A friend who abandoned me when I needed a friend the most.

She's a disgrace to all other friends.

"Miguel?" she tried to walk closer to my bed.

"If am to be you, I won't take another step forward." I protectively covered my sleeping babies for fear of her tainting them with her presence.

"Please Miguel, at least listen to my explanations," she begged.

"It's either you leave this room right now, or I do so. The call is yours." i turn my face to the wall so I won't be able to see her and whatever expression she might have on her face.

I can't afford to fall for her pity face.

"I will leave for now Miguel, but don't think I will give up until we return to how we were before."

"In your dreams," I scoff.

I don't plan on returning to wherever or whoever we were before. 

I have no plans of having her as a friend. A friendly who betrays and deserts the other in a time of need. In a time I so badly and desperately needed a friend.

"I won't give up. I didn't give up now not when I didn't give up then."

With that said, she walked out of the room.

*

I changed locations when I learnt if mother's return back to the pack town. She must have been brought back by Aiden.

"Why don't you stay here with us? you're more comfortable in this place than there." Daniel said.

" Comfortable?" I look at him as if he somehow have three heads instead of one. " What's comfortable in a place like this? what's comfortable in having you three in the same roof as I?"

If they think I will be comfortable with them here, then they have a surprise coming their way. I can never be truly comfortable in a place like this. At least not with them being in it.

How can I be comfortable when my heart despite the words and cautions of my mind beats whenever they're near?

How can I be comfortable while longing for not only them, but their touch on me?

Am not comfortable because am afraid of what I might do if I continue on with them in the same house. I might end up doing something I will regret after.

"We know you're not comfortable being with us, but here is more safer than the place you're going to. Nowhere is safe as long as Manuel keeps on roaming the world." Donald said.

" Manuel?"

This is my first time hearing Manuel's name from their mouth after days of being with them.

"We know he's somehow related to what happened to you and our babies. Be rest assured we will deal with him when we get our hands on him." Damien said with a note of finality. His hands clenched in a fist as if he's somehow imagining crushing Manuel's witch head.